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It's Sunday, the 28th and only a couple more days until the New Year's. It is still fresh in my mind the events that happened to me this month last year. This month last year I had a lot of free time. It sounds good but actually it wasn't. I was bored silly. I watched movies, went window shopping, surfed the net, ate different kinds of food in various food places, etc. but when you do that after about a week, it gets kind of boring ( for me, anyway). I was bored and felt unhappy last year but this year is different. I had lots of teaching work to do this month this year. I'm so used to working all of the time( I've been doing this for years now !) that I feel bored and unhappy if I'm not always teaching. I still have to teach tomorrow and Tuesday and then we have a three day New Year's holiday ( on the 31st, 1st and 2nd ). I go back to my teaching work on the 3rd of January. Last year, I had a three week New Year's holiday. I was soooo bored.

Yesterday, I watched a youtube video about the afterlife. It's about 86 minutes and comes in 9 parts ( 10 minutes each). It was really good and I had a good time watching it. Ever since my friend Larry passed over, I 've been reading lots of books about death, the afterlife, whjat happens to us when we die, etc. All of a sudden, I take great interest in this subject. I guess I just want to know that Larry really is okay in the spirit world. I pray for him a lot. I didn't pray for him all that much when he was still living until he got very sick. When he was very sick ( before he left the earth plane), I prayed for him every day, that God would heal him and make him better. It seems like everytime I pray for a very sick person to heal ands get better, they end up dying. I prayed for Terry Schiavo to live. In the end, she died a couple of weeks after her husband took her off of her feeding tube and she wasn't allowed any water. Terry's story is sooooo sad. It is so inhumane to not allow a sick person to be fed and receive water. I prayed for Terry for about 2 and a half weeks for a miracle to happen so that she could live. When I read that she had died, I felt so sad. I prayed so much for her that it almost felt like she was my relative or friend.

I wish that death wasn't a part of life. Death is so sad. It separates us from people that we love and care about. I know, and believe, that death is not the end but when our friends and family pass over, they take on another form and things just aren't really the same anymore between us and them. Maybe their spirit can see us but we can't see them. We can't really communicate with them the way we were able to when they were still alive. I mean, communication is possible through a psychic or a medium but that's about it, unless you're psychic yourself ( and I'm not ). Death changes things. Since Larry was such a huge influence on my life when he was still on this earth plane because we were so close, I know that I've changed since he passed over to the spirit world. I'm no longer the person that I used to be.