[jupiter]

Everyones experience with "God"is different and to judge it by the Churches we have today is perhaps not the best way to measure your experience or expectation. The fact that you believe in peace which is a fruit of the "spirit"is a sign that you are in God, but then again it really depends on our understanding of what GOD is.You are a seeker and as it says "Seek and you will find"perhaps in letting go of pre conceived ideas is the beginning of findind real truth and that you really do have the spirit within.It's not always as we think and as Christ says" I give but not as the world gives".I had to free myself from the bondage of religious conditioning and found freedom and found what God was and was not!Peace is a great place to be!