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Originally Posted by AussiePam
Hi Boogalette - I'm so glad you came in here and let a bit of your feelings out. That's a great start. I think you touched a chord in a lot of us - women who've found ourselves isolated, tired from looking after household needs, and kids. Women who are both tied down, busy, but bored too. In need of adult stimulus, conversation, friends, outside interests.
I well remember a few what I call grey years. I lived them in a kind of depressed fog. And when you're right down, it's hard not to find a way to stop the spiral, and start moving upwards again. The fact that you've managed to come in here and spit some of this out is probably that first hard step. Congratulations.
You know what I found helpful? I started a journal. But I tried to make it a positive journal only. Each day I tried to list a few bright moments, even just one bright moment - simple stuff like - today I saw a bunch of yellow butterflies. Today I turned on the radio and they were playing my favourite song. Today the scowly shop assistant told me a joke and we both laughed.
Good luck with the yoga. Don't get tangled up too creatively -  or if you do, put the webcam on!!! 
(I dedicated a bit of flamenco to you - dance is a great way to let it all hang out too... ole)
This Song is Dedicated to............... |
Thank you Aussie Pam, I appreciate that
I should start my gratitude journal again. I did wonders for me years ago. I think I will, even if I have to say I'm happy to have trimmed my fingernails. Or maybe SpongeBob...I like him, he's funny.
I'm wallowing in the dark. I'm wondering if I'm unhappy with my marriage. Actually I think that If I entertain
that thought, then it must be hitting close to home.
I'm taking the blame, I don't know why. I do know that I'm beginning to get angry. That's not good, But it's better than thinking about driving into a transport truck, or slipping under while taking a bath. I'd never do it but I do have those foolish thoughts some days.
I'll hang onto the anger for now. I'll listen to music all kinds and that should bring me out of it.