[lady cop]

ahhh Floppy...some people are endowed with stoicism when it's necessary. mentally and physically, witness how 97 pound people can lift a car off a person caught underneath. i don't know how to explain it except anecdotely, but within 1 year i watched my relatively young parents die horrble deaths. i was cold as a fish throughout the ordeal because someone HAD to take care of everything. it took me years to grieve properly. i still do in fact. and i am totally unaffected at the worst scenes i've seen. or at least i think so, until later. bottom line is what others here have said, you have reserves of strength that come to the fore when you are needed. bless you xoxoxox