[Marie5656]

I have not made a post here in a while. So I figured I would catch up.
I have been having a rough patch of it. Rick and I are going through a rough time of it, and for a while it looked as if we would not survive this problem.

As I have mentioned in prior journal entries, I am not the best money manager, and also not the best at being up front and telling Rick everything. I am not sure I will ever totally be good at either. And yes, my marriage may end up being a casuality of this.

I cannot handle money well, should not have a credit card for any length of time.

I am not sure why I can talk about things here and not bring them up to the person who matters most in my life.

It scares me that I have these imperfections, and I do not know how to make them better. Counseling has not helped. Threats of Rick leaving bring it to a head..but then I cannot seem to change my inability to manage money..or talk it out with him with out lying, or hiding the truth.