[BabyRider]

Originally Posted by chonsigirl

BR, for what you suffered, you have done well. You will continue to get better as time goes by. Many areas of the brain will heal, grow new neural pathways to reconnect many things you once remembered.

Sometimes like you example of never using white paper, is some on the new things you will have to face. I have loads of books on TBI, and I know what doctors have told me, concerning my husband. They gave up on him by the 12 month point. They usually tell you 12-18 months is the top for recovery of certain neural sensations and memory. Don't you believe it one bit! You can always continue to get better, it might be a long slow process, but you will do it.

You have the will, the power within yourself to continue to get better. I have all faith in you.

Ah, thanks Chonsi. I know a lot of this will change but it's the actual change that makes me nervous. I am a completely different person now, and what I will become makes me wonder. A lot of what I'm seeing in me is nothing to be proud of. For God's sake when I saw Bullet on Friday I started a fight with him! A FIGHT WITH MY IMPRISONED HUSBAND!!! For the love of Christ I made him cry. The next 24 hours were the worst since he's been gone and I spent our next 15 minute conversation apologizing for being such a POS.

On a happier note though, I have a friend who lost the sight in one eye and it took 2 YEARS for her to regain it. My regular doctor told me that even though the neurosurgeon said I wouldn't get the sight back that it's way too early to say that for sure. That gave me some hope, but I still won't be holding my breath. I will ride again, it will just have to be a 3-wheeler. Even if I do regain my sight I don't think I can ever trust cagers to drive around me again. That and the fact that I have to re-learn how to shoot my bow and my guns really twists me up. I will probably never be as good a shot as I once was.

However, the alternate ending to this story is that my friends would have attended my funeral.