Nicky, I haven't had experience of losing a partner but I have lost close family members and although it takes time things will get brighter for you. Never be afraid of talking about your husband for as long as we remember someone they are always with us.
If you feel like crying then cry, never try and bottle up your feelings, be prepared for the silliest things to upset you, somehow when you have lost someone close you are able to cope with major things but the most stupid, insignificant things will get to you and upset you.
Remember that the forum is always here and you will always find someone here who will listen and help.
Take care and take each thing one step at a time, if you have a bad day today then remember that you can change things tomorrow, I hope that you find the support and friendship that you need here.
