Life of ~NS

[NefariousSaint]

I see there isn't many that use this part of the forums and since it's simple, easy to use, don't have to keep up maintance, I'll step up.

A history.......

I was born in Zanesville, OH and grew up in a troubled family. Both my father and mother weren't what you would call upstanding parents. They divorced when I was a child and I was sent to live with my fathers grandparents. In the meantime I would visit my father, who all in all wasn't a bad man but had no father skills, and my mother on alternate weekends. When I went to my mothers it was very unpleasant and I'll sum it up with one word.....beatings. At age 9 my drug addicted mother felt she had enough of life and decided to end it. I was filled with anger for the longest time and to this day still haven't forgave her or the people that she was with that turned her life into a complete misery.

I continued to live with my grandparents learning a great deal of respect and how to become a good person. My father went on to marry two more times only to end in divorce in each one because of his partying. When I started JHS he decided that he wanted to play parent and I was sent to live with him. There I learned how to drink and smoke Mary J. After a while we were coming to terms that it wasn't going to work out so I went back to my grandparents but with the same attitude I had learned being at my fathers. While I was being a complete a**hole my grandmother was getting Alzheimers. Didn't help the stress between all of us and the disease caused her to be put in a resthome. I then went on a downward spiral getting into fights, partying, and doing more drugs. My grandfather was diagnosed with lung cancer my Jr year and I decided to drop out of HS and take care of him. While I was doing so at age 20 I was arrested 3 times and had to spend some time in jail, not much but even 3 days is too much. My grandfather was ready to do things on his own and tried to set me on a straight path. My father during this whole time was making an occasional visit here and there which brought more anger into me.

My father and his wife seeing that my grandfather was failing fast decided they were going to move into the house and take over. to say the least we didn't get along at all. My grandfather passed then soon after my grandmother. Since I never graduated I started to work in a box plant while still living at home with my father and his wife who is only 4 years older than I. I became so stressed out that I ended up having to go to the hospital for blood pressure. The doc had to do a double take becuase it was so high. Said I needed to calm down after they ran many test and everything came back negative. Put me on some meds and sent me on my way.

Decided that if I continued down the path I was then I wouldn't have long to go. I called up a guy that I knew since I was knee high and asked him for a job. He set tile and traveled a good bit which the pay was the same as the box plant so I said sure lets go. Started working for Mike Bintz in early 2002 going places all over the east coast. I started out as a laborer then kept moving up the ladder. We landed a Drury Inn in Dayton which was my chance to get out of the house. I stayed there for 7 months and when the job finished moved in with Mike at Buckeye Lake. He moved me up to estimator where I would be making a lot more cash. Spent a year and a couple months there and moved into my own place down the street a bit.

Two weeks ago Mike was killed by his brother which was not only a major loss for me but sent everything concerning the future into a tail spin. His brother and I are going to try and keep the company alive cause I'm good at what I do. Just adds alot more stress to a life that has plenty.

During the time I spent working with Mike I met jaggedlittlegirl online who I have became very loving of over the past few years. She has been very helpful to me and has pushed me thru some very bad times. We are hoping to finally be together within the next few months, depend on how the buisness goes.

Well that's my history in a nutshell. As for today, it's raining outside and I have a todo list but can't accomplish it fully because I have no ride at the moment.

ToDo:

Move the rest of the stuff out of Mike's house
Goto Newark and payoff Verizon bill
Goto Zanesville and get new ID cause I lost the last one
Goto Post Office and set up PO Box for new company
Goto bank and get Waffle House check notorized
Do takeoff on Holiday Inn Express due on Monday
Do takeoff on Ryan's Steakhouse due on monday
FedX down $6700 bill to Waffle House and have them FedX back
Go thru Blue Book and BidClerk looking for new jobs

Sounds fun eh?

Anyway, I'll be back later and my next entry won't be as long as this one.

~NS

[NefariousSaint]

Last few days have been stressful to say the least. Did manage to get a few things accomplished though. We finished up the Waffle House in Dayton and shouldn't have to go back. The invoice was sent down today for the $6700 of which I think I'll get $2300 of. Buys me some time to get things rolling and now it's just a matter of when they will send the check. Everything is out of Mike's house and my new weight room is setup. Also finished up the living room except for the huge pictures that I still must hang.

Boys made it back from lake Cumberland in Kentucky and they said they had a blast. It's good that they had a chance to go, took their minds off of what's going on up here. After next weekend, which is supposed to be Captain Woody's benifit for Mike's boys, I think I'm gonna have them spend a weekend up here. I'm sure the friends they had here will want to see them and the summer is to the point where it will start fading out.

As far as work goes I'm between a rock and a hard place. Mike's brother Pat is talking that he needs to get out of the trade which is fine, as long as he keeps to his word and will continue to be the head of the company, something I don't want. All I need him for is insurance, workers comp, and handle the company costs as far as tools/hotels/food goes. I can bid the work, schedule the jobs, send people where they need to be and handle payroll. If he chooses to go against his word I'm going out for myself and continue to bid jobs and then sub them out to somebody else. Either way I will make plenty of cash it's just a matter of time and patience which I feel that I have neither at the moment.

Anyway, some pics of my pad......see ya

~NS

[NefariousSaint]

Wrote this a while back on my MSN Space, Realm of High Jinx. I tried to copy paste everything off there as I had to start a new one due to SPAMMERS sending me 1000 emails a day along with 50 trackbacks. Anyway, decided to stick this one in here as it kinda shows my slight edge to insanity that I for some strange reason believe keeps me from going completey wacko......

Forget the date I wrote this on but I think it had the title Of "Quiet and Sleep Good, Noise and Kids Bad". Idea for this style of writing came from a bright individual I met on another board that never ceased to amuse or intrigue me. Anywho............

Waking up at 8 AM on a Sunday is "bad". Unless it involves something fun like sex which is "good". Today wasn't one of those days. Last night everyone over 21 went to Woody's to watch a band except me. That was "good" for me because if I went I would have spent 150 bucks which is "bad" and would make Rocio "mad". Kids went to sleep early which is "good" but that means they awaken early which is "bad" if it's on a Sunday like today. They are loud and don't go to church which is "bad" only because they wake me up. They play video games with lots of bangs and booms. They are really "good" at the games which is "bad" because that means they play a lot. Some people think that games are suggesting that kids go out and do "bad" things like kill cops. They want to take the games off the shelves which is really "bad" for the kids but in turn makes me "glad" because that means I'll get more quiet and sleep which is "good".

See what happens when I get up this early on a Sunday? Makes for a "bad" entry as the only thing I can think of is sleep. I don't have any Captain Crunch either which is very "bad" because I don't like anything but cereal for breakfast. On rare occassions I'll have some steak at Bob's which is "good" but also is expensive and that's "bad". Eggs are only "good" when they are deviled and bacon is only "good" on subs. Bacon is very "bad" for your heart like a lot of stuff is. I once saw a person in the WaffleHouse eating a side of bacon while drinking a large cup of coffee and smoking a ciggarette. I thought wow.....that is really "bad". Then I thought that maybe they knew something that I didn't know which could either be "good" or "bad" depending on what it was. Maybe there was a comet hurling toward Earth and he saw it on his telescope. That would be a "bad" thing for everyone but in a way it could be "good" for him. He would know that he could do basically anything cause there wouldn't be any consequences which is "good". Or maybe he was just a shmuck and didn't care about his health which is more likely and "bad". Makes me wonder that since he did "bad" things then he might be a very "bad" man. Almost to the point where he was "evil" like Hitler who was very "bad", maybe even the "baddest" man there ehas ever been. The movie Sling Blade popped in my head for some reason and as I sat there eating I wondered what alot of people wonder, if you know someone is going to do a "bad" thing like Doyle Hargraves did, would it be a "good" thing to put a stop to it like Karl Childers. Then I thought that no matter what the case is, killing someone is never a "good" thing so I continued to eat my "bad" breakfast while I dreampt of hurting the cook very "bad" for making me eat such a "awful"meal.

Have a "good" day !



Anyway, a glimpse into my thoughts and that's a PG Rated kinda morning.

One of these days I'm going to think about seeing some sort of therapist to help with my so called "anger".........or become a dictator and rule my own country. Whichever gives me the most joy.

[NefariousSaint]

In the words of the greatest toon of all time......WOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!!

This is the check that saved my ass. Everything is due on Friday and everything has been a mess after Mike's death with getting paid, bills, payroll etc etc.

Owed out.....Worker 1 $700, Worker 2 $640 for payroll. Pay off July's rent plus August and September $1800. Cable/net/home phone $485. Fax bill $50. Electric $85. Cell phone $50 deposit. $ 40 to the lawn guy. Brings total to $ 3850 and leaves $ 2185. Will cost $100 to start new checking account and take out another 5 for me to live on for food/gas etc for the next month.

$ 1585 will be leftover in case we need it for anything. All I need now is to have nothing go wrong until we finish a Starbucks or KFC and can bank 5-10 K after payroll and all will be good.

Today is a good day after 28 bad ones in a row.

~NS

[NefariousSaint]

Today I have realized that no matter what I do I can't please everyone. It's actually sad in a way with a loved one in one corner and several others in another. I know they all care and when you're with the ones in one corner they just want you to be the person they know and care deeply about and grown to love. If you do that the ones in the other corner get angry about your decisions to make the others happy. In the end it leaves you wondering if you weren't there anymore if it would make everyones life easier. I'm not talking of suicide but rather just going away from everyone so nobody is angry with me for the decisions I make. Dunno, deal with it the best I can and just hope everyone is happy with what I decide I guess. Such is life......

I can say I learned a good deal about kids today. I spent time with Nicole today who is my kid sister and it was fun. I also had Mike's boys calling me wanting to come down and stay a weekend cause they miss me. What I learned is that no matter what you do kids love you for you and the person that you are even if you make a mistake. Wish I could say that about everyone but I can't.

Till we read again...

~NS

[NefariousSaint]

So this is what I've chosen after the discussion today.

Patrick

Saint

"We need to figure out what I'm going to get paid off of these jobs since I am not going to be the "owner" and don't want to be."

"Okay that's fine. You tell me what you think is fair and all I really want is for you to be happy cause you are the one that is getting the projects."

"In the field if it comes to labor or something simple for you or to help out your ex-company I'd want $15.00 an hour. Anything as far as installing or running the guys on the crew I want $20.00 an hour and be bumped up once I can prove to you and even to myself that I'm worth more."

"That's perfectly fine and have no problems with that at all. Now what about the estimating, payroll and organiztion of the work? I was thinking something like 10 % to 20 % of the labor cost."

"Been told that I'm worth alot more than 10, which is what I was making with Mike, and have been offered 20 by another company. Twenty I'd be happy with and if I decided to throw extra in the bid for myself I'd make a sidenote of why and how much."

"Fine with that as well as long as the work keeps coming and we make money to keep everyone happy."

"Agreed."

That is the conversation that may put me into early retirement and able to travel the world like I've always wanted to.

There was question where I'd end up going and what I'd be doing. I had many options and they came with a boatload of stress. The fact that he is going to be the face of the company and deal with people if something goes wrong, the insurance, the taxes and the hiring of people takes a lot of weight off my shoulders. Since he is going to be this person it allows me to concentrate more at getting work which in turns gives me more money which makes me . In return, I'll be doing him a favor and tell him that any job that he gets the lead for I'll only take 10 % of the labor instead but I'll end up making that up by being the supervisor so it won't be too big of a loss.

We are doing Paterson Hall, a women's dorm on OSU campus, right now which is a job that landed in his lap and we are doing it under our company, not the one he is splitting up with. Paying 6 bucks a SF to install the floor and walls which there is around $ 1100 to a room in the labor. Times that by 8 and you have 9 K. Gives me $ 900 for doing the office work plus whatever hours I have on the job which I figure will be between 4-600. I can live off that easily for 4 days worth of work as we have to be finished up by Saturday. 2 more sets of 8 will be coming up shortly so things are actually starting to look up........

Except for this damn electric bill that jumped 90 bucks on me from last month.

~NS