Emotionally unstable personality disorder.

How big a step is it from being the above to being a psycopath,murderer or living legend ( depending which way you look at it )? Is it a kiss on the cheek and then a missed appointment with a loved one that pushes one over the edge or is it inbred and like a ticking clock just waiting for the alarm to go off? My life is in a constant state of flux. I can have good days where i can be fairly normal then i can have days where the excitement and anticipation and thoughts of killing and harming people seem almost to tempting to resist. I plan it all in my head who, where, when and the adrenaline flows, the heart rate rises, sweat breaks out and a lmost a state of euphoria arises!!!!!!!
I live in a house with a lady who has taken me in knowing some of my past. She likes to think that everything will be fine, but as she detests the medical proffession she has never seen a doctor she stops me from seeking help. I have previously been on Seroxat 60 mg a day for a year but that did not really help. I have spent time in a Psychiatric hospital and been arrested for actions which i was about to do but the police never found out to what extent i would have gone. I begged to be sedated 24 hrs a day for the rest of my life but they said that was a Victorian treatment. What I would not give to be back in Victorian times.My phone, e-mail etc has been bugged and there is a long police file on me. Perhaps I hope that one day i will be arrested before any harm comes to anyone. The only way out is death when I can finally achieve piece of mind without the thoughts rushing around in my head. I have tried over doses galore, sleeping tablets, paracetomol, been arrested and escorted from railway lines.
If there is anyone who can helpme end my life painlessly then I ask you to contact me. You will be not taking a life but saving many!!!!!

[LottomagicZ4941]

Dave B. Only the Lord has the right to take a life. And if you don't want to be here and still are then there is a reason for you bing here.

There have been times where I was so distraught that I had prayed for him to take me home.

Psycobable can only label you. Jesus can regenerate anyone including you if you want to let him into your heart. We are all worthless sinners capable of what Adolf Hitler did if we let our selves get and remain posessed.

Lotto
http://com4.runboard.com/blifetheuni....fmainchat.t47
MagicZ4941A

[Peg]

If a person really wants to commit suicide, they can do it and do it right. If a person comes on a board asking how to commit suicide, they really don't want to do it.

[LottomagicZ4941]

Originally Posted by lady cop

what crap and bollocks. i invited Dave to send me his name and address if he wants help. the rest is bullshite.

Are you saying you are the savior and not Jesus?

Lotto
http://com4.runboard.com/blifetheuni....fmainchat.t47
MagicZ4941A

[LottomagicZ4941]

Originally Posted by Peg

If a person really wants to commit suicide, they can do it and do it right. If a person comes on a board asking how to commit suicide, they really don't want to do it.

When I was in college a professsor gave a what I thought was a very funny lecutre on this.

He said people who wanted to kill themselves would slit their wrist the long way and not across.

The mass majority of the class thougt it was funny.

But the gal infront of me said "My brother killed himself."

Never saw that girl again because she slit her wrist the long way.

The professor had to go on stress leave and last I heard he has not lectured since.

"I never had the nerve to make the final cut" pink floyd from the final cut.

If you have never been so down as to wish for death praze the Lord.

Lotto
http://com4.runboard.com/blifetheuni....fmainchat.t47
MagicZ4941A

[Nomad]

My 1st instinct was to help David however some of his comments were outrageous leading me to think he might not be 100 %.
I could be wrong but I dont think so.

[lady cop]

Originally Posted by LottomagicZ4941

Are you saying you are the savior and not Jesus?

Lotto
http://com4.runboard.com/blifetheuni....fmainchat.t47
MagicZ4941A

you're an idiot and everyone knows it.you post spam and you advocate shooting of police. eat **** and die. you are a dumb-ass piece of crap.

[Peg]

If you have never been so down as to wish for death praze the Lord.

I know at times I have wished for death. I also know I have never tried to commit suicide. I also know that if I really did want to, I wouldn't have to come on a forum and ask how to do it.

[Nomad]

WOW !
You are a good detective !
You found me out right away !

[MicahLorain]

Originally Posted by Dave-B

How big a step is it from being the above to being a psycopath,murderer or living legend ( depending which way you look at it )? Is it a kiss on the cheek and then a missed appointment with a loved one that pushes one over the edge or is it inbred and like a ticking clock just waiting for the alarm to go off? My life is in a constant state of flux. I can have good days where i can be fairly normal then i can have days where the excitement and anticipation and thoughts of killing and harming people seem almost to tempting to resist. I plan it all in my head who, where, when and the adrenaline flows, the heart rate rises, sweat breaks out and a lmost a state of euphoria arises!!!!!!!
I live in a house with a lady who has taken me in knowing some of my past. She likes to think that everything will be fine, but as she detests the medical proffession she has never seen a doctor she stops me from seeking help. I have previously been on Seroxat 60 mg a day for a year but that did not really help. I have spent time in a Psychiatric hospital and been arrested for actions which i was about to do but the police never found out to what extent i would have gone. I begged to be sedated 24 hrs a day for the rest of my life but they said that was a Victorian treatment. What I would not give to be back in Victorian times.My phone, e-mail etc has been bugged and there is a long police file on me. Perhaps I hope that one day i will be arrested before any harm comes to anyone. The only way out is death when I can finally achieve piece of mind without the thoughts rushing around in my head. I have tried over doses galore, sleeping tablets, paracetomol, been arrested and escorted from railway lines.
If there is anyone who can helpme end my life painlessly then I ask you to contact me. You will be not taking a life but saving many!!!!!

Consider alcohol or marijuana. You sound like the type that is better off subdued by depressants.