Beautiful Ben

[beautifulben'smum]

Hello everyone, thank you all so, so much for your messages. I am crying as I write this but they are good tears. To know there are so many good, caring people out there is wonderful.

I had a dreadful day yesterday, was very down all day and drank a bottle of wine to myself last night (not good!).

However, today has been pretty good. I have been with my best friend, Kerry, to visit another friend in Leamington. We had lunch and laughed a lot and cried at a little. It did me the world of good.

As I come to my computer now, the first thing I see is the picture of Ben that I have as my wallpaper. It was taken on a boat in Zante in 2005, a few months before he was diagnosed. He is sitting with his brother, Ashley, and they both had great big grins on their faces. He looks so happy, like he hasn't a care in the world. Our lives changed so much just a few short months after that photo was taken. I miss him so very, very much.

Ben was the kindest, sweetest person you could ever meet. I know I am probably biased, but he was gorgeous, with big blue eyes, super long dark lashes and a gorgeous smile. He didn't have a bad bone in his body and would have done anything for anyone. Why do the tragedies always seem to happen to the good ones? Life feels so unfair at the moment. He was a super keen footballer, played in his local team for years and was an avid Liverpool supporter. We took him to meet the Liverpool team at their training ground on 4th January this year, just a month before he died. He got to meet his idol, Steve Gerrard. It was such sweet pain and joy to see him there.

Thank you all again so much for your kind words, and thank you for listening. I am always willing and happy to hear about yourselves too.

God bless you all

Julie x

[Carl44]

Originally Posted by beautifulben'smum

Hello everyone, thank you all so, so much for your messages. I am crying as I write this but they are good tears. To know there are so many good, caring people out there is wonderful.

I had a dreadful day yesterday, was very down all day and drank a bottle of wine to myself last night (not good!).

However, today has been pretty good. I have been with my best friend, Kerry, to visit another friend in Leamington. We had lunch and laughed a lot and cried at a little. It did me the world of good.

As I come to my computer now, the first thing I see is the picture of Ben that I have as my wallpaper. It was taken on a boat in Zante in 2005, a few months before he was diagnosed. He is sitting with his brother, Ashley, and they both had great big grins on their faces. He looks so happy, like he hasn't a care in the world. Our lives changed so much just a few short months after that photo was taken. I miss him so very, very much.

Ben was the kindest, sweetest person you could ever meet. I know I am probably biased, but he was gorgeous, with big blue eyes, super long dark lashes and a gorgeous smile. He didn't have a bad bone in his body and would have done anything for anyone. Why do the tragedies always seem to happen to the good ones? Life feels so unfair at the moment. He was a super keen footballer, played in his local team for years and was an avid Liverpool supporter. We took him to meet the Liverpool team at their training ground on 4th January this year, just a month before he died. He got to meet his idol, Steve Gerrard. It was such sweet pain and joy to see him there.

Thank you all again so much for your kind words, and thank you for listening. I am always willing and happy to hear about yourselves too.

God bless you all

Julie x

i had thought about you and ben over the last few months , losing a child is the worst thing any human will go through in life ,just last week an 18 year old girl died from CJD she used to live 50 feet away , i spoke to the parents yesterday and said how sorry i was , i know exactly what they are going through as i know exactly what you are going through ,words that i can say seem so meaningless but i do know i do care and i'm here if you ever want to talk jimbo

[WonderWendy3]

Originally Posted by beautifulben'smum

Hello everyone, thank you all so, so much for your messages. I am crying as I write this but they are good tears. To know there are so many good, caring people out there is wonderful.

I had a dreadful day yesterday, was very down all day and drank a bottle of wine to myself last night (not good!).

However, today has been pretty good. I have been with my best friend, Kerry, to visit another friend in Leamington. We had lunch and laughed a lot and cried at a little. It did me the world of good.

As I come to my computer now, the first thing I see is the picture of Ben that I have as my wallpaper. It was taken on a boat in Zante in 2005, a few months before he was diagnosed. He is sitting with his brother, Ashley, and they both had great big grins on their faces. He looks so happy, like he hasn't a care in the world. Our lives changed so much just a few short months after that photo was taken. I miss him so very, very much.

Ben was the kindest, sweetest person you could ever meet. I know I am probably biased, but he was gorgeous, with big blue eyes, super long dark lashes and a gorgeous smile. He didn't have a bad bone in his body and would have done anything for anyone. Why do the tragedies always seem to happen to the good ones? Life feels so unfair at the moment. He was a super keen footballer, played in his local team for years and was an avid Liverpool supporter. We took him to meet the Liverpool team at their training ground on 4th January this year, just a month before he died. He got to meet his idol, Steve Gerrard. It was such sweet pain and joy to see him there.

Thank you all again so much for your kind words, and thank you for listening. I am always willing and happy to hear about yourselves too.

God bless you all

Julie x

God Bless you Julie, please know that I am sharing your tears...sending more to you.

[beautifulben'smum]

Hello, me again.

Just wanted to say, I have created a memorial site for Ben if anyone would like to take a look. The address is ben-deeley.memory-of.com.

Love to all

Julie x

[Patsy Warnick]

The one peaceful thought that allows me to go on - I'm so thankful for the time I had - If your son was to be with any family, be thankful Ben was part of your family.
My sister lost her son - I told her the same, she says it helps.
I call it a lease on life, which is undetermined, and we are so grateful for the lovely soul that entered our lives and shared.

Jimbo & I have delt with so much, and we have are tough days, so we do completely understand your day to day process.
Honestly, I think it took me over a year to snap back to reality after my nephew died. So, don't hurry the grieving process - it will run its course.

Whenever you need to talk / vent - you can pm me anytime.

Patsy

[WonderWendy3]

Originally Posted by beautifulben'smum

Hello, me again.

Just wanted to say, I have created a memorial site for Ben if anyone would like to take a look. The address is ben-deeley.memory-of.com.

Love to all

Julie x

I did and Julie, I have tears running down my cheeks...He is beautiful!! Please know that we are here for you whenever you need us!

[Carl44]

Originally Posted by beautifulben'smum

Hello, me again.

Just wanted to say, I have created a memorial site for Ben if anyone would like to take a look. The address is ben-deeley.memory-of.com.

Love to all

Julie x

julie like you i have cried a million tears and have been to hell and hopefully on the way back its a long long horrible terrible journey ,but as you can see you dont walk it alone ,nor should you there are good kind people here that would want to talk to you given the chance

Originally Posted by Patsy Warnick

The one peaceful thought that allows me to go on - I'm so thankful for the time I had - If your son was to be with any family, be thankful Ben was part of your family.
My sister lost her son - I told her the same, she says it helps.
I call it a lease on life, which is undetermined, and we are so grateful for the lovely soul that entered our lives and shared.

Jimbo & I have delt with so much, and we have are tough days, so we do completely understand your day to day process.
Honestly, I think it took me over a year to snap back to reality after my nephew died. So, don't hurry the grieving process - it will run its course.
Whenever you need to talk / vent - you can pm me anytime.

Patsy

we have patsy we had more than our share

Originally Posted by WonderWendy3

I did and Julie, I have tears running down my cheeks...He is beautiful!! Please know that we are here for you whenever you need us!

ulp me too ww ,blubbed like a baby

[beautifulben'smum]

Hello, me again, sorry!

Just wanted to say I'm still trying to get my head around the navigating of this site. I think it's wonderful but am only just starting to get to grips with the private messaging and being able to chat on-line etc. So, if I don't reply to anyone straight away or PM when you have said I can, please don't think I don't want to, just taking a bit of time getting there!

Love you my darling Ben, miss you sooooo much.

Love to all


Julie x

[Carl44]

me with hair and my little angel


http://i167.photobucket.com/albums/u...rs/Natahsa.jpg

[Imladris]

Originally Posted by jimbo

me with hair and my little angel


http://i167.photobucket.com/albums/u...rs/Natahsa.jpg

Jimbo, one of you looks completely gorgeous!