I miss Clair so much

[Clodhopper]

I always think I must be a bad person to suffer this much. perhaps now you can see why I want to die sometimes. lol karen

God I know this one. Different reasons, but I know this one. I have no time for counsellors either. Mostly bl**dy perverts. I recommended them because they really appear to help so many people. But in my experience there is no-one to rely on but yourself. You are still alive. I know what it is to have those you love the most tell you you are sh*t.

You've come here and told us. So you want to live. Then live. Look outside yourself. Look at the world around you - the whole of it. This is an amazing place. The people may be sh*t, but this is still an amazing and beautiful place. You've a couple of dozen years to see it and you will die anyway. Eternity is very long; life is short. Bear it for the few more years more you have. You might be surprised.

[farmer giles]

Originally Posted by Clairs Mum

No I do not need professional help. I have had enough of that to last me a lifetime. they have now taken me off there books. I have also had counselling. what I need is to talk to other bereaved parents especilly the ones who have had thet dreaded knock on the door. my knock came at 2.30 in the morning and I was alone and had no one to turn too. you also dont undesrstand the abuse my son has put me through. emotional, physical and verball when he is off his head.
I always think I must be a bad person to suffer this much. perhaps now you can see why I want to die sometimes. lol karen

i watched my daughter die and watched as the machines went off one by one and watched as the latline machine made that horrible noise

i had the knock on the door from my cuz jess el guopo here at 3 am to tell my my younger brother casey had died in a house fire,looking through his burned out home was pretty grim

like your son i turned to drink but am pleasd to say have been sober for nearly four months

if you need to talk about anything i'm here but i dont do the i know how you feeel stuff even though i do know how you feel

i'm more of a lets help your son and move you away from this all consuming grief to a happier place man

grief is only here for a while it goes you and your son will and an move on

thats if you dont try to kill yourselves in the meantime that is

if today is not the worst day you have ever had then things must be getting better

[Clairs Mum]

hi everyone. thankyou all for your kind words.
my son daniel has been sent to prison this week on remand and i am so happy!!!!
the reason I am happy is at least he wont die on me. He is now detoxing off alcahol. the doctor said he had months left to live if he didnt stop drinking.
I feel like a big weight has been taken off my shoulders, he is going to be away for a few years and now I can get on with my life.
he wrote me a lovely letter apologising for everything he had done. and it was like magic.
I do not want to die now this is a fresh start for both of us. lol karen xxx

[AussiePam]

Oh Karen !!!! My thoughts and prayers are with you.