the blank canvass that is my life

[farmer giles]

after years of struggle its all over

chantelle is gone she was never well enough to be in the army anyway ,its not suprising she broke down went awol ,the mental health team did a fantastic job the social workers saved her life ,they really did ,she handed herself in and watching your daughter being taken away by two hulking armed guards was upsetting beyond belief ,but once she got well again she wanted to do the proper thing,i dont know what will happen to her ,she may spend a year in the army prison she may be discharged ,all i know is what ever happens to her i'm proud of her and i will be here if she needs to come back ,she is very hard work with her bipolar up three days at a time hyper then comes the fall wanting to kill herself and depressed beyond belief its tough but thats what dads are for

suzy and i have broken up ,we will still be friends its a little raw right now but give it time it will be ok

so any way as i look out to the beautifull sunny day

my life is a blank canvass i can paint a masterpiece here on it .... its all up to me

wish me well and good luck guys for the first time in many many years i'm free to live my life for me the person who used to own it

[Carolly]

Somewhere along the line Jim we lost the friendship we once had.It dosent matter who was to blame but it happened.I read your post here and it moves me very much and Jim I wish you so much.....you have come through some crap that must have been so hard for you.You have no idea how shocked and sad I was to hear about you and Suzy and I wish you both so much.
Jim.....good luck in all you do and may the days ahead be better than the ones you have come through....good luck mate.

[shelbell]

You've been thru a lot jimbutt, but sometimes a fresh start is a really good thing. Before you start painting on your blank canvas, make sure to throw out the blacks, browns, and greys. Use the colors that are bright, beautiful and show a great and positive life. Whenever you find one of the dark spectrum colors trying to sneak back in, throw it away again. When your life is coming to a close, I hope you'll be able to look at that canvas and see the beautiful picture you painted that was your life.

[Kathy Ellen]

Dear Jim,

You have been through a lot of pain lately, and I know that you will be strong enough to get through this with the help of your loved ones and friends.....




A Creed To Live By
Don't undermine your worth by comparing
yourself with others.
It is because we are different that each of us is special.
Don't set your goals by what other people
deem important.

Only you know what is best for you.
Don't take for granted the things closest to your heart.
Cling to them as you would your life, for without them
life is meaningless.

Don't let your life slip through your fingers
by living in the past or for the future.
By living your life one day at a time,
you live all the days of your life.

Don't give up when you still have something to give.
Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying.
Don't be afraid to admit that you are less than perfect.
It is this fragile thread that binds us to each other.
Don't be afraid to encounter risks.

It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave.
Don't shut love out of your life by saying it's impossible to find.
The quickest way to receive love is to give love.
The fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly;
and the best way to keep love is to give it wings.
Don't dismiss your dreams.

To be without dreams is to be without hope;
to be without hope is to be without purpose.
Don't run through life so fast that you forget
not only where you've been, but also where you're going.
Life is not a race, but a journey to be savored
each step of the way.
~ Nancye Sims~

[shelbell]

That's awesome Kathy...I'm saving it for when I'm ready to start my own new canvas.

[Peg]

Originally Posted by farmer giles

after years of struggle its all over

chantelle is gone she was never well enough to be in the army anyway ,its not suprising she broke down went awol ,the mental health team did a fantastic job the social workers saved her life ,they really did ,she handed herself in and watching your daughter being taken away by two hulking armed guards was upsetting beyond belief ,but once she got well again she wanted to do the proper thing,i dont know what will happen to her ,she may spend a year in the army prison she may be discharged ,all i know is what ever happens to her i'm proud of her and i will be here if she needs to come back ,she is very hard work with her bipolar up three days at a time hyper then comes the fall wanting to kill herself and depressed beyond belief its tough but thats what dads are for

suzy and i have broken up ,we will still be friends its a little raw right now but give it time it will be ok

so any way as i look out to the beautifull sunny day

my life is a blank canvass i can paint a masterpiece here on it .... its all up to me

wish me well and good luck guys for the first time in many many years i'm free to live my life for me the person who used to own it

I hope, Jimbo, that this may get Chantelle the help she needs. I pray they will get her on the right combo of meds. You are a wonderful dad to be there for her, and not to give up on her. Unfortunately, it does put a lot of strain on relationships of any kind. Good luck. May your canvass become bright and beautiful.

[Chezzie]

Big hugs

[G#Gill]

Jim, you and I have more in common than I thought. I hold my hand out to you. I am so sorry to hear about you and Suzy, but as somebody said, the stress of life at certain times can be too much pressure to bear. You are a strong guy and you will reach through OK. As Shelbell said - go get the bright colours and start your new canvas. I know I will try and in the meantime I am wearing out my 'Heroes' song in my siggy.

[hoppy]

Believe it or not, I've been through with my sons, the exact same thing you are going through. Life is full of peaks and valleys Jim. Just keep climbing up.

[farmer giles]

Originally Posted by Carolly

Somewhere along the line Jim we lost the friendship we once had.It dosent matter who was to blame but it happened.I read your post here and it moves me very much and Jim I wish you so much.....you have come through some crap that must have been so hard for you.You have no idea how shocked and sad I was to hear about you and Suzy and I wish you both so much.
Jim.....good luck in all you do and may the days ahead be better than the ones you have come through....good luck mate.

it was not a friendship lost just put on the back boiler for the while

the fault was mine ,i was very upset and angry my daughter had gone into the army i knew she was not well enough,the thought of my little angel going out to die in a dust bowl pointless war was most upsetting for me

i posted some quite nasty stuff about bush and blair ,honestly how i felt but really should not of spilled my guts like that ,anyway all in the past no need to mention the war

sorry to everyone one once again for that