Mink's Moments

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Putting money away for those emergancy purchases... great idea but why does it give me that awful feeling in the pit of my stomach when I have to use that money. UGH prolly because it will be January by the time I can replace the funds again. Crikey how does one get ahead. I suck at saving consistantly and my source of income into my savings will end in 1.5 years then what. Oh boy this has me down. I need to save better, but I look at sites that suggest where to cut back and I am already cut back, good gawd how much more can I cut out of my and the kid's life. Ugh!
I guess I can just wait out my car loan then I will have the very little bit per month to use towards a savings. UGH! I always want my finances settled now! I hate uncertainty, crikey not even my job is certain anymore. I can't leave yet I have some holiday time owed me I want that so I am stuck here till November.
I feel gloomy today I know it's because of finances.
I wanted to not have to penny pinch on this upcoming vacation, now it looks like I am going to have to.... dam there was no way around the tire thing, time was an issue as was the fact I am going on the highway, safety first right, yes that is right, good lord I am lecturing myself. UGH again.
Says like this when I hate being the single person without a partner to back up or aid in my decisions and finances.
Ah well it's all for a grander scheme that I am where I am for now. In 2009 I can make big changes.
Ugh I have my daughter wanting me to do one thing and my folks wanting me to do another, I have been asked to go to the daughters house friday eve to see some of her old friends, I said yes awhile ago, my folks want me to go to the lake with them Friday nite so we can only go in one vehicle I originally thought they were going saturday morning, now I am torn. I guess I better chat to daughter next.
I hate being pulled in all directions.
Ok 5+ things today elude me.
The temps have cooled off today (thank goodness)
I am making huge progress at work today
My migraine finally left me
and that is about it. Only 3 today

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My lucky day, I found $6.00 while dumping the garbage from the bathroom. I know it was intended for Jr Minks awhile back I remember giving it to her, and it some how slid off the counter and landed between there and the garbage pail. Funny that is, Jr Minks and I use the bathroom counter as our message center. Because we are in and out of the house different times we leave messages and money there because it's the one sure room we will both be in before we leave the house. Maybe we need a peg board in there ahahahaha
Aw kids... my gosh I am having a bit of an issue with Jr. Minks she is claiming to be hanging out with a GF but I think it is really the new BF (I have yet to meet) I am suspecting she is lying to me about her whereabouts cause she sure gets all dolled up to go hang with girls. I texted her this last nite when she asked about sleeping over at her GF's house. I said I didn't believe that was where she was. Ugh I remember this age with her older sister, I do NOT want to go through this muck again. And it was muck with her sister. Some days I have to remind myself to just let it go.... odd that is what I keep telling my guy friend about his son. Same age as Jr Minks, similar problems. Dang why didn't children come with operater maunuals?? Instruction books?
I had a very nice evening with my guy friend, hmmm just what do I call him now, seems he wants to be more than friends and I kinda like that idea. He is so very nice and fun to be with, he treats me like a princess, we have tons in common, I have met his kids he has met mine (hahaha this is more daunting than meeting the parents at our ages ahahaha) I like his kids and to be honest it's a huge plus to be seeing somebody with similar parenting beliefs of kids of similar ages. Huge aid in understanding and accepting each other.
I foresee a few small issues I have to wrap my head around with him, and I do see him working on those and has been since before I even met him so that is good. So we shall see.
It feels kinda weird like sticking your toe into the dangerous waters again, should I or shouldn't I. And always the what if I commit what will I miss out there issue for me... UGH but good for me, that feels less daunting this time around. Maybe just maybe I can let the guard down a little finally hehehehe
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh on that note my gawd the love of my life called me last nite ahahaha now that is a funny joke.... somebody I have had a rollercoaster friendship with for about 4 years now. My old room mate OMG it was good to hear from him, he's coming for a visit this weekend, dam he better get into town before I leave crazy guy. If ever a person walked the earth with a prepetual black cloud over him, it would be this guy, he can't ever buy a break. Amazingly he bounces back time and time again. I can't wait to catch up with him in the next couple days.
5+ things today
I hope to see my old friend in the next day or so
We have a break in the weather and the cooler temps are a blessing
I may have a new man in my life
2 more days of work and I am off on holidays for 10 days
I am tired but feel pretty good today.
Happy wednesday
Cheers

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I am Seattle Bound. Yep seems due to fire bans and road closures and precautions with smoke in the air... We are changing up our route. We will drive our ass's off to Seattle and area, ok if we were to go without stopping it's only a 10 hour drive pfffft done that before easily.
There is a large theme park out there we are aiming for, sure it's no Disneyland but what the heck, it beats what we got here. Jr Minks is extatic, and OMG I have so much to do before we head out eeeek. Aw we won't sweat it We will do what we gotta do.
I can't wait, it will be a new adventure and I am directionally challenged so I am off to the AMA at lunch for maps hehehehe
Ok 5+ things
prolly all repeats
Holiday bound soon
Sunny day
Can't wait to see my old friend
Going to see my daughter and her old friends tomorrow
Great coffee going for another cup.
Happy Thursday
Minks

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grand holiday, I must say Jr Minks is a good sport she loves to explore. Minimal details cause eventually I will start a thread with pics. YAY! Or maybe only yay.
Whew it's been a long day today tough coming back to work after holidays. Mind you I also am a bit weary cause I have my dad on my mind with his back surgery and all. I tell ya it's rough business seeing your "superman" down But I shant dwell on it he will be fine or as best as he can be with each passing day. I sure do not want to go up to that dreary hospital tonite. Maybe it's better to go alternative nites give him a bit of a break in between.
People irk me. I have a co-worker who lost his cat this weekend and he came to work yesterday and cried he just could not work it was too much for him and asked to go home UGH!!! I love pets, I own pets, have had pets all my life and.... have had to sit in vet offices while 2 of my pets were put to sleep. Life goes on, I mourned my loss it hurt like hell but I had to let them go. I accept the pain as a pet owner but bloody hell, step into my shoes one day mister rosey life. I bet you don't survive a second... CRAAAAAP get over yerself.
Ok I feel better I know we all have our own personal hell but I do not approve of you making it everybodys hell.
Grumpy pants I know!!!!
Hey I read it was national Creamsicle day in the US that is funny ... just how does one celebrate that.
HAH!
Hey by the way just what the heck is a Canadian Accent? Some little FG birdy here thinks we got an accent ahahahaha funny how we do not recognize our own accents mine you we all can fake an English, Aussie, Scot, Southern USA accent has anyone faked a Canadian one? Pfft this is random thought day today.
Whew I am tired, I went out for lunch with the boss today and had a couple beers now I am tired. And grossly unproductive hahahaha.
Ok mindless ramble here.
Wow, here is something I ponder.
I have a new man in my life, YAY. WOW nice guy. Makes me feel great over all. However I got a few issues but I am trying to see them as minor imperfections as I know we all got them.
1) he is struggling with his weight, I have faith he can reduce it I see his efforts, this is tough for me cause I never ever had to worry on my behalf so I have to tread with caution.
2) suddenly he is saying things like "oh I am terribly this or terribly that around you, I am not alway like this, perhaps one day I should show you the real me. Yep my eyes bugged out at this term too but so far I have no problems with what I see, basically he refers to his "guyness", "manners" and just the fact he thinks it isn't always so polite ok perhaps time will tell.
3) Ugh he is from the Province of weed ahahaha only us Western Canadians get that. But drugs goes a bit against my grain and my attitude is, you gotta love me for who I am, not for who you perceive I am from behind the "haze". Ugh little things for now... we shall see.
Ok 5 +'s today
The work day is nearly over.
I learned there is a light at the end of the work tunnel, there is hope.
We are still having cooler temps.
It's good being back here.
I get to see my grandson tomorrow.

Happy Tuesday
Minks

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whoo hoo 5+'s first today
Dad is home
I had a great evening with my 2 daughters and grandson.
The temps outside are perfect
I ran into 2 old friends in the grocery store last nite
My paper pile is growing smaller.

Whew things like mad....
WOW how can a father be so stupid.... my ex mother in law is in the hospital, well worse yet "The Center", the cancer center for tests. This is freakish cause not 6 years ago the ex father in law died of cancer. We all have awful memories of this place. Ok so back to my daughters father.... he has NOT called our youngest daughter to tell her this. I found out through my brother who found out from friends. Then I asked my oldest who knews barely more than that. The Phecking jerk, I mean how the phecking heck can he not tell his girls, talk to them, take them to see her, for gawd sake they lost their grandpa to cancer, what next. Ooooooo I am pissed off.

Ok onto good things, Dad is home that is thrilling! From what little I have seen he is doing fantastic. I hope this keeps up. Oh update I just talked to him whooo hoooo he sounds great, is feeling good, and has surprised everybody from mom to the Doctors at how good he is doing. He fessed up to me he is a little worried about how good he feels ahahaha silly man.
YAY!

I had an awesome evening with my girls and grandson last nite, I made them no actually we all made dinner, we watched the movie Wild Hogs (funny stuff) and we gave my oldest her pressies that we brought her from our trip, and we looked at pics. It was awesome seing my grandson too Yay again.

I ran into 2 old friends in one nite in the same grocery store last nite that was a hoot.
Sadly one's daughters (17 years) is in the hospital, some nerve disorder they can't figure out she has symptoms of MS I am so sad to hear this. But she is upbeat I hope all goes well.
The other one had all good news, funny us 3 women were girl guide leaders together at one point what a riot.

Ok work beckons.

Happy Thursday
Minks

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Wow I have fallen behind. Been much to busy wrestling lions and tigers and bears.

Yay Jr Minks is back in school. This with luck will be her final year of public school, she should graduate next spring... OMG I am feeling old, and dreading the day she moves out. I can't help but wonder what I will do with a 3 bedroom house then.... it's going to be too huge for moi. sigh.....

Well well well, our thread on communication got me thinking today. I spent an hour last nite listening to my good friend talk about his past and his ex and his failed marriage and WOW, I thought I had it bad, his really blew!!!! But it was kind of cool that he rambled on for an hour about it, something he never did before, I had no idea it was that awful for him. It sure explains why he is the way he is. And I can't blame him one bit. Funny how some people come across as these tough as nails kind of people but then one day they open a little window and you get a good look inside. Amazing, it sure shows you why people built up that hard exterior, it's protection. (like any guy is ever going to admit that to anyone ahahahaha)

But my point being, if you just listen to people it's amazing what you can learn. Sure that is common sense, I think most days I have a lot of it (hehehehe)
But you get little bits of information on people as you get to know them and you try and piece things together. Sometimes you are way off in left field, and other times you are bang on.
5 good things
short work week ahead
nice weather out there
my dinner is already made for tonite
my yard work is nearly done
i had a decent nights sleep finally last nite.

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Ahhhhhh Another day, another $5.00 ok maybe not that but it's a good opening line
I am still feeling very sad for my friend and his loss of his wife One just can't even begin to imagine the life change when you are the working man and you support your stay at home wife, your 3 month old baby, her 10 year old son and your 16 year old son. WOW, how do people get through this.
I spent a couple hours with my daughters last nite as usual we had a lot of laughs. My wee grandson is just about to take off walking we had him up to about 3 steps unaided. Oh he was having fun at one time he took 2 steps towards me, then plopped down onto all 4's and crawled at break next speed towards me, just a little speed bug that one. And so darn cute. He had is first haircut on the weekend so adorable he looks so handsome now all tidied up whoo hoo look out little girls.

Awwww I am feeling bad for Jr Minks, last nite was her first communications (via text message) from her father in 6+ weeks. It was a horrible reaction from her when she read "hello stranger, how come you never call me, did you mom tell you about "bob's" wife"
Poor Jr minks was upset that this was what pushed her dad to talk with her some event that isn't even family related.
He asked her if she wanted to go to the funeral with him, his wife and the princess. She did not message him back she asked me if I wanted to go and if I would go she would go, and we would go with her sister. So she waited for her sister to come over and immediately told her if she goes to the funeral she would only go with her and myself.
The ex pressed on with both girls and sent messages back to them about meeting him there so they did not have to walk in alone. Neither replied to that.

The girls insisted I go. They both realize how important mine and "bob's" friendship was and how it got torn apart by their father. The girls both reminded me that a month didn't go by when they both worked together that they did not see "bob" and he asked them about me told them to tell me to phone etc. We were very supportive of each other when we hit our blackest points during each of our divorces. We spent many hours crying, being horribly angry, and often laughing. We were there for each others kids, we ate dinners together with the kids, we took the kids places we just knew we all needed each other. Heck at times us 5 look like a right regular family.
Sadly the exhusband pushed a big wedge between me and him as well as other friends so I just bowed out and walked away.

Well I went into another room after we had our conversations about the funeral and when I came back I said "girls do you know what your father is doing" and Jr Minks spoke up first and said "yes, he wants us to go with him so he looks good and that he is a good guy with us" I merely shook my head yes. How sad is that for a 16 year old girl to sense this.

I will go along as support to my friend and his son, I will not allow any of the event be about my family and with luck the ex will leave it be.

I know there will be people from "Bob's" family that will wonder why I am there, and there will be past lost mutual friends who will wonder to, and I know people will spectulate about our past friendship but I have nothing to hide or feel bad about. At one time this was the best and only friend I had and quite simply that is what we were to each other.

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The "service" was lovely. The "minister" was the same minister who resided over my ex-FIL's funeral/cremation. He spoke very little, he read a letter my friend composed for his wife, then her brother spoke, then a friend of the family's spoke, then there was a slide show, and then a reception. So simple clean and upbeat all things considering.
I did get to say a few words to my friend offer some time and hug him and his son. I was very surprised that many of his family members came up to me and hugged me and thanked me for coming.
It was awkward with the ex there and I turned down all invites to join the family afterwards at the parents house. I just did not feel it was my place. I was deeply touched when my friend asked if I wanted to go and see his baby like right away. I said no today is not the day, I said I would like to see you and your kids when you are comfortable and you want time with the girls and I and that we would love to see the baby.
My friend held up well. I am glad I went, and glad my girls were there too. It was awkward for Jr Minks as she was trying for all she was worth to avoid her dad. I think he was both shocked and pissed off to see me there with the girls, my son in law and my grandson. The ex is such an attention seeker he and the goat (his curmudgeon wife) were just dying to grab hold of the grandson and show him off. Crikey they show no discresion. UGH.
I left with Jr Minks right after we spoke with my friend and his family. It was a relief to get out of there. We agreed to get in touch soon.
It's days like this where you just wish life was simple. I got to thinking all kinds of things about my friend, like OMG he has a baby to raise alone, he will be starting parenthood all over again since his son is 15. WOW how does one do it.

Well that is all for today.

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Well today I just feel like at person who is standing there looking stern with hands on hips.
I will have closure with luck by the end of this weekend, and I am darn proud of myself for standing my ground.
I have done a friend a favor by allowing him to stay with me for a couple weeks while he worked here before going back home to BC. I also insured his car for him for a spell so he could pick it up and take it home. I was leary about it, and didn't like it, but as a favor I did it. I told him no drinking and driving. Well Monday nite I come home and the SOB was as drunk as could be. I went to bed. Net day left him a note that as of month end his insurance is done I am cutting him off because of his drunk driving.
Last nite the friend arrives home long after I was in bed I suspect he was drinking, WELL!!! when I woke up this morning my front door was half open and my cat had run away. I was livid, I left the now ex friend a note telling him what he neglected the result and that he no longer is allowed in my house he has to leave this weekend. Once I see him leave I will be on the phone and cancel insurance immediately I have had enough, he has over stayed his welcome. And I don't even feel bad about this, just relieved to see him out. Last time he stayed I had to send him out after 6 months, not this time.... I am just happy to loose that bother in my life.
Tomorrow morning I shall drop off my resignation with a good feeling. It will be awful for those left behind because I will be the 4th manager to leave in 5 months. I do not have my formal papers done for the new company but am not worried that will come in the next couple days. Today the fakes are taking my boss and all the staff out for drinks to bid her farewell, it's going to be killer to sit through the BS and uncomfortableness of it all knowing full well I will be next to go. It's almost laughable.
Awww life is funny and certainly never dull for me... ever.
But surprisingly I feel great.

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My time is winding down, I only have today and tomorrow let in this company. I am glad to be going, the past handful of days have been painfully slow, nobody talks to me here, they are all to busy scrambling about trying to keep the company afloat. I can only laugh.... it's also rather sad too. I walked into the office today and stood in the lobby and remembered the work that was put into it to make if look nice and professional, nice fresh paint, gorgeous tile flooring, leather couch, a few plants and it is beautiful. 3 of us contributed to the decorating of it and we were so proud of our work. None the truer reflection of my time here at this company. I came on board as a receptionist, they were desperate for me, they scooped me from another company and offered me 25% higher wage just to secure me. I was happy to come onboard. The president was a vibrant, smart, experienced man with goals like you would not believe. His assistant former boss, and now awesome friend is a woman of vision. She is a real go getter, smart, patient and funny. Between the 2 of them I learned so much. I was honored to be part of this company's growth, they kept me involved and in a short span of time they took me from receptionist to purchaser then added in training and shipping duties. I soon moved to Logistics Manager. I was thrilled to be promoted. During the last half of my time here much changed, a person was hired on who dragged the company to the pit that it is in now. In his time here our wonderful president resigned, our finance guy quit, our sales manager left and I am the last of management to leave.
It's like a ghost town in here, every corner has a memory of some sort of better times.... It makes me sad on one hand to leave however on the other hand I can't sail the sinking ship anymore.
I look forward to my new endeavour I understand I will be crazy busy....
With this change of jobs, I will no longer be the daily Canadian fixture in FG. I won't have the internet at my new job so will only be on the odd evenings and weekend times. I shall miss my daily fix of FG and withdrawl is going to be rought.
But it's not like I am gone forever heck I have been here far to many years to keep away permanantly.
Minks