Skittles Just Wants Normality... - Page 3

Omni_Skittles · 07-25-2008, 10:09 AM

Oh the things i want to do!!! I don't want normality! I want an adventurous life full of twists and turns and fast cars! I don't want to be married and held down and be a wife of someone! Dear God, No!!! I'm sure it's one of the greatest blessing someone could bestow but not for me! I want to jump off cliffs, fly, ski, come to near death experience. Why exactly am I afraid of somethings anyway??? I'm going to die one way or another so why not die doing something amazingly freaking cool!

I have it in me i know. Rebellious and oddly I don't fit the cookie cut of what a girl should be like... but I'm tired of Normality. I'm SO STINKING tired of childish dramas, stupid arguments... when honestly in the end i don't really even care!!!!! I'm 18 and i know everyone has been there but i don't want to grow up! why???? what's the point. I want to live a flipping amazing life. A life i think of as amazing anyway... But i still want to learn to ballroom dance.... hahaha.

So much is going through my head.

I want to do so much and be so much but of course I'm stuck in college doing what i'm supposed to do........... which is not that bad... but maybe it's time for me to idk... leave???? hmmm I want to leave home!!! Like disappear from this place for a while! and do... EVERYTHING!

Omni_Skittles · 08-01-2008, 03:39 PM

Do you think it's selfish for someone to stay single???

Omni_Skittles · 08-01-2008, 04:16 PM

So i realized today... that one i realize a lot... and two----

I been looking toward the rewards of what i do! In the end of everything i do... i always have a reward in mind! like getting a paycheck, or going to heaven. Good things, granted... but i think the best reward i can want right now is to not expect a reward!!! It builds selfishness slowly and in the end resentment... say your working and you do something for your boss out of the ordinary... he expresses gratitude (reward) and so you do the same thing sometime later and don't get the gratitude you first did... so you go about it different avenues and still get nothing.... soon possibly resentment is built... then what? you get angry and to the extreme--- kill the guy! who knows i'm just saying!!! but you get my point... Do something without expecting a reward no matter what, even if you do get the reward don't expect another one. Rewards are nice... but that shouldn't be the cause of anything...

just a thought from yours truly!

Omni_Skittles · 08-22-2008, 10:47 AM

If weakness is a wound that no one wants to speak of
Then "cool" is just how far we have to fall
I am not immune, I only want to be loved
But I feel safe behind the firewall

Can I lose my need impress?
If you want the truth I need to confess

I'm not alright, I'm broken inside
And all I go through, it leads me to you

Burn away the pride
Bring me to my weakness
Until everything I hide behind is gone
And when I'm open wide with nothing left to cling to
Only you are there to lead me on.

Honestly, I'm not that strong.

I'm not alright, I'm broken inside
And all I go through, it leads me to you

I'm not alright... that's why I need you.

That was written by Sanctus Real. Amazing song and it's something about how i feel a lot. So i love it even more for that.

Omni_Skittles · 09-11-2008, 07:00 PM

Peace be still.

Omni_Skittles · 09-15-2008, 02:22 PM

Wow, God is so good. I can never express that enough!!! I am going crazy with school!!!!!!!!!!!!!! like CRAZAZY! It's super great to be back and having this "normal" life. School seems to give me the dose of normality i need. I am taking 18 credit hours!!! which in reality is not that much... so here's my schedule

FOUND OF CHURCH MIN TR 10:50 AM - 12:10 PM
INTRODUCTION TO THEOLOGY & APOLOGETICS TR 12:20 PM - 01:40 PM
INTRO TO LIT MWF 01:45 PM - 02:40 PM
AMERICAN HISTORY I MWF 11:35 AM - 12:30 PM
BEGINNING ALGEBRA MWF 12:40 PM - 01:35 PM
VIDEO PROD I R 01:50 PM - 04:40 PM

Pretty exciting right? I mean riiight? I'm worried about math because... I HATE MATH! i super duper hate math! no offense to math geniuses but i don't get you. so that's my week. As you can see no lunch! which is kind of a bummer! OH OH i got a job on campus!!!! i'm super stoked!!! i work thursday friday and saturday... YES I KNOW!!! horrible days... but i need money. money is always good to have. I'm trying to trust God to supply my needs. Which i guess there is no question about it... except to just trust him. But I'm fallible. like all humans. anyways just checking in to say HI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Omni_Skittles · 10-03-2008, 09:18 PM

I've had questions, without answers
I've known sorrow, I have known pain
but there's one thing, that I'll cling to
You are faithful, Jesus You're true

when hope is lost, I'll call You saviour
when pain surrounds, I'll call You healer
when silence falls, You'll be the song within my heart

in the lone hour of my sorrow
through the darkest night of my soul
You surround me and sustain me
my defender, forevermore

when hope is lost, I'll call You saviour
when pain surrounds, I'll call You healer
when silence falls, You'll be the song within my heart

and I will praise You, I will praise You
when the tears fall, still I will sing to You
and I will praise You, Jesus praise You
through the suffering still I will sing

when hope is lost, I'll call You saviour
when pain surrounds, I'll call You healer
when silence falls, You'll be the song within my heart

oh yes, You are good to me
You've always been good to me
so trustworthy

when hope is lost, I'll call You saviour
when pain surrounds, I'll call You healer
when silence falls, You'll be the song within my heart

and I will praise You, and I will praise You
when the tears fall, still I will sing to You (I will sing to You)
I will praise You, Jesus praise You
through the suffering still I will sing

how faithful and true
sustain me through and through
You are hope and truth
You must bring a little water
You must bring a little water

in the lone hour of my sorrow

who springs never fail
be faithful and true
like...
like a spring it never fails
you're my spring never fails

Omni_Skittles · 10-04-2008, 07:29 PM

I can't wait until Christmas!!!!!!!! I been listening to Christmas music and it makes me happy!!! I know it's still like three months away but this is really the first time I've ever been excited for it!!!!

Omni_Skittles · 10-06-2008, 10:10 AM

Today's a new day. I think I've decided to force myself to move on. There's nothing in my pass that i like thinking about except maybe the spam and mutton... mmm mutton. I'm basically the picture perfect screw up... to a lot of people... I didn't grow up with a father, I barely had a home to stay in growing up... i was tossed from my mom to my grandma to my mom... it's crazy what life ends up like... I been living in the pass of my brothers death... my abusers and some small things. I think i should hit a point in my life where i say... I'm done being the Victim of my life. I'm done crying for the same things... I'm done being hurt by people who don't know it. I am finally letting go of what people would call baggage. haha i have a lot of that. So i think this is it. I think i'm finally going to let go.

Omni_Skittles · 11-15-2008, 07:39 PM

UGh stupid boys! STUPID STUPID STUPID!!! I can't believe i do this every time. what happened to me wanting to be single? What happened? Who was i kidding!!!!!!! STUPID TIFFANEY STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!

07-25-2008, 10:09 AM	#21 (permalink)
Omni_Skittles the awesomest one :) Supporting Member Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Waxahachie, Texas Posts: 2,277	Re: Skittles Just Wants Normality... Oh the things i want to do!!! I don't want normality! I want an adventurous life full of twists and turns and fast cars! I don't want to be married and held down and be a wife of someone! Dear God, No!!! I'm sure it's one of the greatest blessing someone could bestow but not for me! I want to jump off cliffs, fly, ski, come to near death experience. Why exactly am I afraid of somethings anyway??? I'm going to die one way or another so why not die doing something amazingly freaking cool! I have it in me i know. Rebellious and oddly I don't fit the cookie cut of what a girl should be like... but I'm tired of Normality. I'm SO STINKING tired of childish dramas, stupid arguments... when honestly in the end i don't really even care!!!!! I'm 18 and i know everyone has been there but i don't want to grow up! why???? what's the point. I want to live a flipping amazing life. A life i think of as amazing anyway... But i still want to learn to ballroom dance.... hahaha. So much is going through my head. I want to do so much and be so much but of course I'm stuck in college doing what i'm supposed to do........... which is not that bad... but maybe it's time for me to idk... leave???? hmmm I want to leave home!!! Like disappear from this place for a while! and do... EVERYTHING!
Local Time: 07:45 PM Local Date: 11-21-2009

08-01-2008, 03:39 PM	#22 (permalink)
Omni_Skittles the awesomest one :) Supporting Member Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Waxahachie, Texas Posts: 2,277	Re: Skittles Just Wants Normality... Do you think it's selfish for someone to stay single???
Local Time: 07:45 PM Local Date: 11-21-2009

08-01-2008, 04:16 PM	#23 (permalink)
Omni_Skittles the awesomest one :) Supporting Member Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Waxahachie, Texas Posts: 2,277	Re: Skittles Just Wants Normality... So i realized today... that one i realize a lot... and two---- I been looking toward the rewards of what i do! In the end of everything i do... i always have a reward in mind! like getting a paycheck, or going to heaven. Good things, granted... but i think the best reward i can want right now is to not expect a reward!!! It builds selfishness slowly and in the end resentment... say your working and you do something for your boss out of the ordinary... he expresses gratitude (reward) and so you do the same thing sometime later and don't get the gratitude you first did... so you go about it different avenues and still get nothing.... soon possibly resentment is built... then what? you get angry and to the extreme--- kill the guy! who knows i'm just saying!!! but you get my point... Do something without expecting a reward no matter what, even if you do get the reward don't expect another one. Rewards are nice... but that shouldn't be the cause of anything... just a thought from yours truly!
Local Time: 07:45 PM Local Date: 11-21-2009

08-22-2008, 10:47 AM	#24 (permalink)
Omni_Skittles the awesomest one :) Supporting Member Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Waxahachie, Texas Posts: 2,277	Re: Skittles Just Wants Normality... If weakness is a wound that no one wants to speak of Then "cool" is just how far we have to fall I am not immune, I only want to be loved But I feel safe behind the firewall Can I lose my need impress? If you want the truth I need to confess I'm not alright, I'm broken inside And all I go through, it leads me to you Burn away the pride Bring me to my weakness Until everything I hide behind is gone And when I'm open wide with nothing left to cling to Only you are there to lead me on. Honestly, I'm not that strong. I'm not alright, I'm broken inside And all I go through, it leads me to you I'm not alright... that's why I need you. That was written by Sanctus Real. Amazing song and it's something about how i feel a lot. So i love it even more for that.
Local Time: 07:45 PM Local Date: 11-21-2009

09-11-2008, 07:00 PM	#25 (permalink)
Omni_Skittles the awesomest one :) Supporting Member Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Waxahachie, Texas Posts: 2,277	Re: Skittles Just Wants Normality... Peace be still.
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10-03-2008, 09:18 PM	#27 (permalink)
Omni_Skittles the awesomest one :) Supporting Member Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Waxahachie, Texas Posts: 2,277	Re: Skittles Just Wants Normality... I've had questions, without answers I've known sorrow, I have known pain but there's one thing, that I'll cling to You are faithful, Jesus You're true when hope is lost, I'll call You saviour when pain surrounds, I'll call You healer when silence falls, You'll be the song within my heart in the lone hour of my sorrow through the darkest night of my soul You surround me and sustain me my defender, forevermore when hope is lost, I'll call You saviour when pain surrounds, I'll call You healer when silence falls, You'll be the song within my heart and I will praise You, I will praise You when the tears fall, still I will sing to You and I will praise You, Jesus praise You through the suffering still I will sing when hope is lost, I'll call You saviour when pain surrounds, I'll call You healer when silence falls, You'll be the song within my heart oh yes, You are good to me You've always been good to me so trustworthy when hope is lost, I'll call You saviour when pain surrounds, I'll call You healer when silence falls, You'll be the song within my heart and I will praise You, and I will praise You when the tears fall, still I will sing to You (I will sing to You) I will praise You, Jesus praise You through the suffering still I will sing how faithful and true sustain me through and through You are hope and truth You must bring a little water You must bring a little water in the lone hour of my sorrow who springs never fail be faithful and true like... like a spring it never fails you're my spring never fails
Local Time: 07:45 PM Local Date: 11-21-2009

10-04-2008, 07:29 PM	#28 (permalink)
Omni_Skittles the awesomest one :) Supporting Member Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Waxahachie, Texas Posts: 2,277	Re: Skittles Just Wants Normality... I can't wait until Christmas!!!!!!!! I been listening to Christmas music and it makes me happy!!! I know it's still like three months away but this is really the first time I've ever been excited for it!!!!
Local Time: 07:45 PM Local Date: 11-21-2009

10-06-2008, 10:10 AM	#29 (permalink)
Omni_Skittles the awesomest one :) Supporting Member Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Waxahachie, Texas Posts: 2,277	Re: Skittles Just Wants Normality... Today's a new day. I think I've decided to force myself to move on. There's nothing in my pass that i like thinking about except maybe the spam and mutton... mmm mutton. I'm basically the picture perfect screw up... to a lot of people... I didn't grow up with a father, I barely had a home to stay in growing up... i was tossed from my mom to my grandma to my mom... it's crazy what life ends up like... I been living in the pass of my brothers death... my abusers and some small things. I think i should hit a point in my life where i say... I'm done being the Victim of my life. I'm done crying for the same things... I'm done being hurt by people who don't know it. I am finally letting go of what people would call baggage. haha i have a lot of that. So i think this is it. I think i'm finally going to let go. __________________ Always Learning...
Local Time: 07:45 PM Local Date: 11-21-2009

11-15-2008, 07:39 PM	#30 (permalink)
Omni_Skittles the awesomest one :) Supporting Member Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Waxahachie, Texas Posts: 2,277	Re: Skittles Just Wants Normality... UGh stupid boys! STUPID STUPID STUPID!!! I can't believe i do this every time. what happened to me wanting to be single? What happened? Who was i kidding!!!!!!! STUPID TIFFANEY STUPID!!!!!!!!!!! __________________ Always Learning...
Local Time: 07:45 PM Local Date: 11-21-2009

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