I Wonder

[kazalala]

Day 6
12.25pm
I feel loads better today
still having what i assume to be cravings a sickly feeling in the pit of my stomach,,,, and feeling hungry Im feeling pretty confident though

[kazalala]

Day 8
12.pm
Now i feel better physicaly, i feel i need to use my willpower more to stop me from smoking I feel more vulnerable now to succumbing than ever before,, strange so far i am resisiting
Before when the thought of a ciggy came in to my mind that was it,,, just a sort of automatic thought to have a smoke, then the realisation that i was packing in so couldnt have a smoke. Now when the thought comes in to my mind ,, i do feel like a actually do want a smoke,, and thankful there are no cigarettes at all in the house

[kazalala]

Day 10
12.15pm

good god day 10!!! its still going ok so far and hopefully i may now just be popping here in every few days or even weekly
I feel fine physically, no more symptoms causing any sort of physical effect such as feeling sick or headaches dizziness etc.
but as i said on day 8... when i get a sudden urge it seems more like a craving now,, what i mean is ,, if there happened to be ciggies in the house i would be very tempted to have one so it seems willpower has to be used now and i am not sure if mine is that good its the same with biccies or chocolate,, i can easily not buy them, and it dont bother me not having them, but if they are in the house i will eat them.

i have had quite a few pm's saying well done etc,, it feels good that people have cared just that little bit to go to the bother of pm'ing me

[kazalala]

Day 13
11.38am

I have quite a few periods now where the thought of a cigarette does not enter my head for quite a while ,, hours even, but today it seem to be in my mind a lot

[kazalala]

Day 17
7.20pm
I am still not smoking and have not had even one puff so farI still have an almost constant *hungry* feeling,,, but i am forgetting about smoking for some good long periods now.

Tomorrow i am going away with some family,, 2 of them smoke so thats going to be a challenge,, i will not ask them not to smoke where i am ,, its their holiday too and i dont want them to feel uncomfortable. I know what its like as i have felt that way in the past even when people say oh feel free to smoke it dont bother me etc,,, you still get this uncomfortable feeling

im still quite surprised im actually doing this

[kazalala]

Day 23
12.23 pm
still a non smoker,,, still could smoke a cig as if i had one just half an hour ago

I am in the irritable stage, unfortunately at the same time my husband is in the totally stupid idiotttttttttttttttt staaaaaaaaaaaaaaage-5

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[kazalala]

Day 24
853pm

why am i so bored??? since giving up smoking,, i feel really bored a lot!!!!!!!!!!!

[kazalala]

ok what day am i on, its 24th april,, last post was 12th day 24,, so wow!!day 36

Day 36
5.45pm

Over a monthI have not had one single puff since i stopped smoking,, i cant believe myself really I am still having the urge to smoke, weird im not thinking about it at all, then all of a sudden i go to have a smokeIts as if i have just had a ciggie about half an hour ago

Im suffering heartburn quite a bit as well.. dont know why it would cause that, but my brother said he got it as well

[kazalala]

Day 40
1.52pm

this is the second time today i have thought about smoking

[kazalala]

Day 50
6.28pm

Still not smoking,, still think about smoking,,, but not as much

still not totally comfortable