I Wonder

[kazalala]

Day 60
6.12pm

I think its getting betteri feel like i dont think about it as much,,, they still pop in to my mind,, but definately not as much

[kazalala]

Day 75
10.40am

well i have had a read back of this journal ,, and realised ,, im not suffering from heartburn now,, nd im sure im not eating as much as the early days.. and dont have the constant hungry feelingalthough i still thik im eating a bit more than i used to when i smoked. that may be because i smoked instead of eating?
anyway,, i maybe think of a cig once a day now ,,, sometimes i get a dya when it seems more on my mind than others,, but they are sort of fleeting thoughts,, i cna put them aside quickish. in 18 days it will be 3 calender months,, i think i ned to have a quick look back in here when i come in now as im leaving it longer each time,,im hoping i wont get the feeling of wanting a ciggie evenually, even if its only fleeting, maybe it needs to be a matter of six months or more before that comes I can totally understand someone caving in though even after a good amount of time, because what if yu get that urge when you are feeling totally vulnerable,, or really mad,,, It would be so easy and so quick to undo all the good work,, i thik i said it before ,,, i have to do ti this time cos im not sure i would wnat to try again if i failed

[kazalala]

Day 87
11.21am
Just been for a few days break in Spain,, could have smoked a ciggie then ,, i think it is more at times when i am relaxing, that i want to smoke as thats what i associated smoking with .... relaxation anyway much better since i got back,, hardly think about it at all now

[kazalala]

101 days
7.07pm
wow passed the hundred days mark,, its much easier nowjust over 3 months3 months is not too long really,,, wonder how i will feel in 6 months,,, i do still think about it but definatley not as often,,, i think i have even gone a whole day wothout thinking of it once. i could still smoke a ciggie,, but its not what i would class as an urge now, and quite easy to put the thought aside. I dont ,, go to have a smoke .. like i used to ,, where i would look towards where my cigs would normally be and put out my hand to get one before realising i have given up.. i cant say i think my taste buds are better,, like people have said, i cant say i feel any different at all actually Im still a non smoker though and i am keeping it up ,,,,,,,,,,

[kazalala]

Nearly 7 months! the thought of smoking still comes in to my head ,, but it dont bother me at all to see other people smoke, or smell it. only 5 ore months to go for a year! i wouldnt have believed it if anyone said i wouldnt be smoking by now this time last year