I Wonder

[kazalala]

I wonder.......















If i can go a whole day without a cigarette then if i do,, maybe i could go another full day, and another

Ok im giving it a go. I have not the faintest clue wether i will succeed or not as i have never tried this before, so dont really know how i am going to react.

Maybe iwill never smoke again

Maybe i will be smoking again before bedtime

Day 1
12.11pm

I had my last cigarette at around 11.45pm last night so i am already just over 12 hours in to my first day I got up at 8.30am and have practically not stopped thinking about not smoking,, having a ciggie,,almost constantly in my thoughts. I have smal pockets of time where i forget, but even then i make the movement to go get a cig wihout thinking I dont feel physically ill or anything yet, a little woozy the last ten mins or so, but its mainly the knowing i have not had a cig yet,, and wanting to do the actual physical act of holding a cig and putting it to my mouth etc. I have a bag of dried raisins and cranberries near me which i dig in to now and then All in all ,, im not feeling too bad so far although i was a little irritated by my husband earlier, who is also trying to give up by the way If we dont kill each other i will hopefully be making regular stops here

[kazalala]

Day 1
7.50pm

well i feel about the same as i did earlier ,, no better no worse my daughter has been so that passed some time, i made tea and ate tea so that passed some time,, now im gonna have a look round here and maybe play some games, then i will watch some telly and go to bed apart from when i am totaly occupied i just think about it constantly I think i am going to make it through this day,,, wonder what tomorrow will bring

[kazalala]

Day 2
9.45am

well i dunno i feel about the same as yesterday,, the main thing is i keep automatically going to pick up my cigarette,,, as if i used to constantly have a cig ready to pick up or in my hand,, its weird I mean i used to go sometimes a couple of hours without thinking of a cigi am aware i want to eat more straight away,,, im allowing myself to give in to that just for the first few days,,, then i will have to curb it...im thinking of buying a treadmill I am irritated when my husband is there and i have to make a consious effort not to be, its probably good i picked yesterday to start as hubs works a lot friday and saturday, poor man just him actually being in the room irritates me I dont think about cigs at all when im walking th dog as i never smoked while walking the dog

well i madde it through one day,, i think i will make it through another

It was 9.45am when i started this,,, then hubs brought some shopping in and i made a coffee

[kazalala]

Day 2
3.40pm
so far today i have eaten:
a banana
a corned beef pasty
a twix
a small bowl of left over spag bol
some raisins and cranberries
another corned beef pasty
two small fingers of chocolate

to drink i have had:
some water
2 cups of coffee
nearly a full carton of pure orange juice

im starting to feel a bit woozy, dizzy sort of

[kazalala]

Day 2
6.10pm

went a bit funny,,, had a nap, then took the dog out for a walk for the third time today

I dont feel good, bit fuzzy, shaky, headachy

[kazalala]

Day 3
9.52am

Had quite a restless night last night, but woke up feeling ok this morning still having an odd dizzy bout, and moments of sort of ,,,, what do i do now??? Its like when i come back from my walk with the dog ,, i usually get a coffee and sit at the ktchen table and have a smoke

Its weird , not how i imagined,, mind i dunno what i imagined really thats what used to put me off trying i suppose,, the not knowing,,, tiill i read a link put up by Fuzzy.

Anyway i have got through two full days and am now in my third day... today i have some work to do which i am putting off as i dont feel like concentrating, then i am going to shower and smarten myself up as i have been invited to my sons house for lunch, so that will occupy me till teatime!!!

I started smoking at about 14 years old! Thats 34 years i smoked! Maybe i wont ever smoke againIts possible

[kazalala]

Day 3
7.45pm

Bad day physically, Dizzy,, buzzy head, pains, could have been worse i have been kept occupied most of the day

But ,, i have made it though another day,, day 4 tomorrow

i have so enjoyed the thread put up by Abbey, Still want a tan so funny

[kazalala]

Day 4
3.00pm

I feel crappy still dizzy, lethargic, just generally yukky. When am i going to start to feel better?,, and when i do start to feel better ,, thats when i will probably need to find out if i have any willpower at all

I was at my mams today, both my sister and my mam smoked while i was there,,, it was weird it didnt seem to bother me at all,, and i couldnt even smell it???

[kazalala]

Day 4
7.30pm

been to bed,, had about an hour sleep,, well a sorta sleep then just lay in bed watching telly til hubs finally decided to make the tea himself he is giving up too,,, and while i am huffing and sighing, and lying in bed, and totally avoiding doing anything,,, he is doing lots of pretty menial household tasks,,, and has spent the ;last hour shredding things god we are both going mad

[kazalala]

Day 5
12.30pm

bloomin ell ,,, day 5!!!!!!!!!!.

I feel slightly better today in the dizziness department,,, still feel bit sick and headachy. I look terrible though My skin and my colour are just gross,,, i have plastered some make up on my face, i might put some on my handsthey look almost blue as far as wanting a cigarette,,, yep i still want oneI have a bad taste in my mouth thats making me think i must have bad breath, have to keep brushing my teeth. I had a bacon and mushroom sarnie earlier for breakfast, and since then i have had two half coated choccie biccies with my coffee, and nearly a full punnett of grapes.