I feel like a completely different person. im physically pained. I don't sleep ever. im constantly on edge. I black out when im sober just from being so angry. I used to be a very good mother but now I only see my boys for a few hours a day a couple times a week cause im so messed up. and not only has it been just 3 years that my daughter has been gone but my fiancÚ decided a year ago now to kill himself and blame me. even though his probs had nothing to do with me but he decided on making his last act trying to destroy me and making sure I knew it. im just tired