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carolly;1129396 wrote: somehow i missed this lovely thread h that only someone as nice as you are could put up.i guess some may read this and think how corny is that....but the truth is you have to be one of the nicest, caring and forgiving person i know and i so wish i had some of your qualities as a human but alas i dont.yes i do and have forgiven many but some i cant......i just cant. Im not proud of this not proud at all and without going into to fine a detail i have to blame my insecurity as a child and rejection that made me as i am today.yes i have many good qualities that i have been blessed with but also ones that do not make me proud.never judge a book by its cover they say and how very true is that.people tend to shy away from people they dont even know because of whatever............so sad.

Im not going into things you may already know about me h but one thing i will always remember on my mothers deathbed are those words that will live with me forever and even as i type this i feel tears in my eyes.to say we had a hard relationship would be an understatement and she knew she was to blame when she looked at me and said.....carol.....all those wasted years.she died shortly after that and guess her words are so very true for so many of us.....if only we could listen to our heart more at times and not let our pride take over.......


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