Depression and anxiety

[Saffron]

Maybe I should write this in another area of the forum.

I've heard that one can know if they are depressed if they no longer find pleasure in things they used to do. This was a good sign for me to see. Lately I have only had the energy to just go to work. It was because of my living environment. So today I found a new place to live. I have lost interest in my webpage design project and in my sewing projects too. And I can barely sleep for the stress level.

I will never live with Mexicans who care nothing about their lives. My roommate has too many children that she cannot take care of. And her soon-to-be-x-husband is suing her and trying to take the house. I have been feeling like any day I will not have a place to lay my head. And her damned kids are totally out of control. She does not discipline them ever! She and her kids are pigs! Last Monday morning her soon-to-be-x barged into the housw with his attorney who served her divorce papers while she was alseep on her sofa at 8 a.m. She was supposed to appear in court the very next day. And the jerk even wrote in the ppwk that he does not like "the babysitter yelling at his kids". He thinks I am the "babysitter". He does not work and is on disability from his job working for the phone company.

I know ppl will try and call me a "Racist" by writing that they are Mexicans. But I have never ever in my life seen people who are so dirty and uncaring about others and themselves. The neighbors have called the child-protection ppl on her and the city has been giving her warnigns about needing to clean up her property. She does nothing. She leaves her underaged kids unattended all tht time. And even tells the city workers that she is not the owner. She cannot even take responsibility for her home now.:-5

I am not even going to tell her I am moving until a few days before. She can have the huge deposit I had to pay to live in the hell hole. I hate to abandon her while she needs renters so badly, but I have to think of myself too. IF she had more control over her life and her kids, instead of running off for several nights a week to the bar and to her boyfriends, she my not have such a bad situation.

I am moving into a home with an older couple and the man just even found some ppl to move me while I was there giving him my deposit. Everyone has been telling me that I should live with old people as they are more stable and quiet. I work in a library, so I like peace and quiet.

I guess this should be in the "ranting" section.:-5

[Nomad]

I cant really explain why but this just makes me sad. Im not even sure for whom.

[CARLA]

Well you did what you should have done, get the heck out of there fast and don't look back..!! Hopefully a new living environment will change thing for you. I feel for you and hope it gets better.. Sad story for sure but you have to take care of yourself..:-4

[buttercup]

have a chat with your doctor

[Peg]

I think once you move out, you will regain your interests.

[SOJOURNER]

Moving out was a very big step. I congratulate You! You are already "on the road" to recovery................. :-6

[jennyswan]

Saffron, I totally understand where you are coming from. I was in a situation some years ago like this and getting out is the only resolution.

Don't even feel sorry for this woman because people like her usually don't change.

She is not even to be pitied.

Get out and get your own projects up and running again. Sometimes in life you just have to be selfish.

I would also make sure you get your deposit back because she certainly didn't keep her promise (I imagine) of promising a nice, living environment.

Best of Luck!!

[Raven]

Saffron wrote: Maybe I should write this in another area of the forum.



I've heard that one can know if they are depressed if they no longer find pleasure in things they used to do. This was a good sign for me to see. Lately I have only had the energy to just go to work. It was because of my living environment. So today I found a new place to live. I have lost interest in my webpage design project and in my sewing projects too. And I can barely sleep for the stress level.



I will never live with Mexicans who care nothing about their lives. My roommate has too many children that she cannot take care of. And her soon-to-be-x-husband is suing her and trying to take the house. I have been feeling like any day I will not have a place to lay my head. And her damned kids are totally out of control. She does not discipline them ever! She and her kids are pigs! Last Monday morning her soon-to-be-x barged into the housw with his attorney who served her divorce papers while she was alseep on her sofa at 8 a.m. She was supposed to appear in court the very next day. And the jerk even wrote in the ppwk that he does not like "the babysitter yelling at his kids". He thinks I am the "babysitter". He does not work and is on disability from his job working for the phone company.



I know ppl will try and call me a "Racist" by writing that they are Mexicans. But I have never ever in my life seen people who are so dirty and uncaring about others and themselves. The neighbors have called the child-protection ppl on her and the city has been giving her warnigns about needing to clean up her property. She does nothing. She leaves her underaged kids unattended all tht time. And even tells the city workers that she is not the owner. She cannot even take responsibility for her home now.:-5



I am not even going to tell her I am moving until a few days before. She can have the huge deposit I had to pay to live in the hell hole. I hate to abandon her while she needs renters so badly, but I have to think of myself too. IF she had more control over her life and her kids, instead of running off for several nights a week to the bar and to her boyfriends, she my not have such a bad situation.



I am moving into a home with an older couple and the man just even found some ppl to move me while I was there giving him my deposit. Everyone has been telling me that I should live with old people as they are more stable and quiet. I work in a library, so I like peace and quiet.



I guess this should be in the "ranting" section.:-5
GEEZ SAFFY!! You should've moved AGES ago! Good on you girl! Honey you're not racist. Give me a break! LOL!! And yep, I agree.....a librarian tends to be a quiet, thoughtful kind of person. That should be the environment you seek. Good luck sweetheart.

[Saffron]

Thanks to everyone who replied.

Now that I have found a quiet new home, I can stop worrying. And start concentrating on my school and work again. Thank GOD I still have those things going. Maybe now the anxiety in my stomach will go away.

As far as my deposit goes, I am going to let her have that, and use if for my last few weeks of living here. She does not know it yet though. I ain't giving her a 30 days notice. The last time I told her i was moving, a week ago, she was playing 20 questions with me about who I was going to live with. It is none of her business. So this time, I am just going. I will tell her the middle of next week that I found a place. And then move. Next weekend I am staying out of town and meeting with my dad for brunch over the weekend. I also need to come up with $400 more for the deposit. I gave the man at the new home $100 to hold it. And filled out the rental agreement. Then we went across the street to talk to his neighbors about moving me. (for free). I have most of my belongings in storage, so only need to pack what is in my bedroom here. And that isn't much.

This woman who owns this house is going to have to find renters as filthy and uncaring as she is. This is the worst environment I have been in for many many years. I guess if you care about nohing, your life amounts to nothing, like her's. I am not going to feel sorry for her. She will never change, and her kids will never change, because she does't expect them to change.

Well, got to go and get ready for work.

[Saffron]

buttercup wrote: have a chat with your doctor
What doctor? I cannot afford a doctor. I only go to a chiropractor. My dad is a doctor though...a chiropractor. I will be seeing him this weekend.:p

[Nomad]

One day at a time.

One foot in front of the other.

This is your life.

Make today worthwhile...you only get today once.

[jennyswan]

Glad things are looking up for you.

Maybe your Dad could loan you some of the rest of the deposit for a while or else they may let you pay it in installments. Once you pay your bills and rent on time and you are quiet and not any trouble they probably won't have any trouble with this.

I'm glad you're getting out. I bet all your problems will sort themselves once you leave this household. It's very draining to live in such an environment and the sad thing is that you usually only realise how bad it was when you leave and begin to relax.

A little tip would be too stock up on vitamins etc now before the move because once you move out and your body begins to relax again you may feel a little ill for a while. This always happens to me in situations like this. I just about manage and then when it's over but that's only me.....

Anyway best of luck Saffron :-6

[Saffron]

I did actually get some vitamin C and B-1 too. My dad said he is going to round up something for me too. And I am definitely going to ask him for a loan.

My filthy roommate's youngest animal stayed home from school today. I can hear him downstairs making his animal noises. And he is sick. I can bet that she is going to leave him unattended today, while she runs off. I hope the child protection people get her eventually, after I leave here.

At least I go to work at noon and then school at night, or else I would feel worse, like suicide. This place is terrible. When I first came here it was not this bad, but now since the divorce proceedings have started, there is a stress level here that is so obvious. In a way, I hope she looses her home here. And she will see what it is like to maybe have to live with other people. Or to see what it is like to be antagonized by strangers like her and her little animals.

[jennyswan]

I did actually get some vitamin C and B-1 too. My dad said he is going to round up something for me too. And I am definitely going to ask him for a loan.

My filthy roommate's youngest animal stayed home from school today. I can hear him downstairs making his animal noises. And he is sick. I can bet that she is going to leave him unattended today, while she runs off. I hope the child protection people get her eventually, after I leave here.

At least I go to work at noon and then school at night, or else I would feel worse, like suicide. This place is terrible. When I first came here it was not this bad, but now since the divorce proceedings have started, there is a stress level here that is so obvious. In a way, I hope she looses her home here. And she will see what it is like to maybe have to live with other people. Or to see what it is like to be antagonized by strangers like her and her little animals.


I know it's hard to see anything good about it now but the one positive thing is that it was a learning experience and you will always be more careful where you choose in the future. I had to learn that one too.

In your heart just wish her well and forget about her. Anger will only hurt you more in the end.

[Saffron]

jennyswan wrote: I know it's hard to see anything good about it now but the one positive thing is that it was a learning experience and you will always be more careful where you choose in the future. I had to learn that one too.

In your heart just wish her well and forget about her. Anger will only hurt you more in the end.
Yeah it's easy to get angry. I just hope that everything for me goes smooth. I will be doing a lot of praying until then.

She has another woman who rents the master bedroom. This other renter is an alcoholic. She drinks vodka all day long. I don't even know how she pays her rent. And she is a drunk driver too. The woman who used to live here, was a criminal and stealing money from the son. But the woman who owns the place would not throw her out, she needed her rent money so badly. The criminal left and did not have time to move all of her things, for fear that she was going to go to jail. But my roommate left the door open for her for a month. She never came back and paid her rent. But she did pay her son back for the checks she stole from him. At least I am not a criminal. I may be quiet, but I don't steal. When I first came here, they thought I was a criminal because I was so quiet. These people are so ignorant, as if loudness is a good trait.:rolleyes: :rolleyes:

[jennyswan]

You know the expression, empty cans make the most noise!!

It's not a bad thing to be quiet.

[buttercup]

its alays beneficial to be a member of several forums for certain topics, in regard to depression & related issues i know of an exceptional site if you wish to p.m me i will gladly give you the address saffron, i have myself battled the condition

[Saffron]

Thank you everyone. I've got about 30 minutes of sleep, then woke up again. So decided to get on my pc and try and make myself tired.