Hello friends and family!!!

mominiowa · Post by **mominiowa** » Wed Aug 09, 2006 4:33 pm

Oh How I have missed you all...First off--let me WELCOME the new members..I am really not a snot---I have just been off line...I am so glad you ventured to the FG!! :-4

I am headed home from this awful place as of Friday..I was very ill for awhile--My blood pressure dropped and the radiation was a large dose..I became very sick but am slowly pulling myself back up to semi normal...the emails have been a welcomed blessing today.. I could not access the Internet as I was bed-ridden for over a week with weakness of which I was sure to die from..I actually felt my soul leaving me as I laid there...It was the scariest thing for me to write each of my children's good bye letters..and now I am getting stronger..I told my mother that I NOW whole heartily believe that when one wills themselves to live--that it can happen..After seeing my children's faces on a recent visit..they saw death lying there, oxygen and vent tubes... and not their mother...before they went away that night and I had kissed each one as they crawled up into my bed and held them...I realized what I was doing--I was letting go and when they walked out the door--it was as if I had said my last goodbyes to them....I REFUSED to see the distress in my 14 yr olds eyes..WE held a glance and she was afraid---she held me and cried and that was the moment I felt my soul pour back into my body....It is hard to explain and I know I am not out of the water yet--but I am eating and I am typing to you now--and up until 2 days ago I hadn't the strength to lift my head, let alone be sitting in this chair...My children are my strength and I believe that I had really been ready to go..Please don't think I am crazy--it was a very REAL thing that happened that night....Its amazing to explain..

I wanted to give you all the update that I had not headed down deaths roadway and I am getting to go home to the local hospital on Friday and HOEPFULLY home by next Wednesday....Your prayers and wishes have taken me through this long trip to hell and back--and I am certain to reach the top and be a well person again..the blood work is getting better everyday and the tumors have all shrunk to less then 2cm..I know in my heart-I could not of done this with out all of my friends and family...Thank you so very much..Much Love!:-4 Dawn

Post by **Bryn Mawr** » Wed Aug 09, 2006 4:38 pm

You don't know how glad I am to see your e-mail.

It is wonderful to hear that you're pulling through at last - you always were a fighter but it been so long I was worrying for you.

Be strong, be well and welcome back.

mominiowa · Post by **mominiowa** » Wed Aug 09, 2006 4:40 pm

Thank you !! I am closing now but wanted to say goodbye--it was a joy to be able to catch up today and yesterday!!! Miss u guys and I will try and get on tomorrow if I can...:-4

minks · Post by **minks** » Wed Aug 09, 2006 6:22 pm

Aw hello again beautiful lady, I hope you get your strength back real soon we all do miss you. Blessings and strength to you and your kids.

chonsigirl · Post by **chonsigirl** » Wed Aug 09, 2006 6:43 pm

Oh Mom, we are so happy you will be out of there soon, and back home!:-4

Sheryl · Post by **Sheryl** » Wed Aug 09, 2006 6:51 pm

So glad you've foun dthe strength to keep fighting. :-6

:yh_hugs :yh_hugs :yh_hugs

cars · Post by **cars** » Mon Aug 14, 2006 5:03 am

Oh Mom, only the very best wishes are sent out your way, it's hard to type this through wet eyes!

You keep on getting yourself better now, ya hear! :-4

Bez · Post by **Bez** » Mon Aug 14, 2006 5:47 am

Hi Mom...so glad to hear from you...you're one courageous lady....:-4

cherandbuster · Post by **cherandbuster** » Mon Aug 14, 2006 6:31 am

Mom,

Your post was hopeful and loving. I think the experience you had was very real and meaningful. I'm so glad you're sharing it with us.

Be well, my friend.

And reach out to us always. We're here :-4