tormented grace

[scenerio]

Into the dark recesses of my mind

i cower in fear

what is this that i so fully hide from

but my self

do i dare question this feeling of such abject horror

i shall never know the true meaning of?

ohh, this open hatred

this hatred and lothing of cowerdness

but do i dare open my heart to the truth

do i dare test my resolve

just how strong is my will to go forth from such safety

as the welcoming pit of lost dreams and shatered hopes

what is this that dares encrouch apon my domain

what is this warmth that so wholey takes me

that so openly spreds light in to my dark lair

could this be the key that unlocks the chains

which binds my soul and inprisons my heart

is this the hand which plunges in to the dark waters

and grasps ahold the vile thing that lurks there, my soul



shall i ever truly believe that i will one day be free

of this torment

shall i ever escape this hell that i created for my self.

can i ever truly belive in my self.

she does.

but is that enough

but she does and that is all that matters.