This has nothing to do with anything. It's just here because I need a place to put it.
There was this guy, see......
And yeah, there really was.
And he was Everything.
The One.
Everyone said we had a storybook romance and I guess we did.
We never bothered to get married but we considered ourselves as such and our families did as well so it seemed like a done enough deal.
We both had growing up to do and we couldn't do it with each other in the way so we split. In a non-friendly manner.
I thought it would kill me. I wished that it had.
Today's his birthday. He'd be 43. So I've been bummed out all day, wondering where he is now, if he's someone's husband or someone's father.
I wasn't his first girlfriend but I was the first one he ever loved. And truth to tell, he set the bar for every other guy come down the pike. Which was probably a good thing.
It still hurts that I apparently didn't mean enough for him to ever look back or make sure I was okay.
And that still nags at me.
It's been 19 years. You might would think I'd stop thinking about him by now.
And sometimes I do.
But not on May 1st.
And of course there's the nagging thought "Do you even remember me?"
So for whatever it's worth, someone once loved me. Someone once thought I was pretty. And intelligent. And worthy of his time.
I should be drinking to be writing this in public but I'm not.
And to top everything off, I found a gray hair this afternoon.
*sigh*
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Oh come on, you're still young...
You're very brave, passionate, thoughtful, funny, and pretty...
I couldn't think of anyone with an ounce of sanity left who wouldn't want to spend time with you...
You're very brave, passionate, thoughtful, funny, and pretty...
I couldn't think of anyone with an ounce of sanity left who wouldn't want to spend time with you...
RedGlitter is Sad Tonight.
So for whatever it's worth, someone once loved me. Someone once thought I was pretty. And intelligent. And worthy of his time.
For what it's worth, there are plenty of us that find you pretty, intelligent, and worthy of our time. You'll find love again when you least expect it.:-6
Instead of wondering if he's married and if he has children, why not try to find the answers to those questions?
For what it's worth, there are plenty of us that find you pretty, intelligent, and worthy of our time. You'll find love again when you least expect it.:-6
Instead of wondering if he's married and if he has children, why not try to find the answers to those questions?
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He wasnt as smart as you think..he let you get away....:-4
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You guys are very kind to a sad girl.
I'm going to see this tomorrow and wonder what I was thinking but tonight my pride's on hold.
No, I haven't really looked him up. Maybe I don't really want to know. I'm not sure. I hardly ever think about him except for his birthday, valentine's day, christmas and whenever I go to Vegas. He lived in Vegas and I used to go there as much as possible to see him. My life didn't start until Friday night when I'd go over the mountains and hit Vegas and then we'd be flying high. I remember every restaurant, every park, every hotel, just everything. It only gets me sometimes though. And then there's stupid stuff: If I smell Drakaar or Grey Flannel, I think of him. When I pass a rack of shirts, I still check out the 18x35's and wonder if he still wears that size.
This is embarrassing but you know those stick on, glow in the dark stars? He put a bunch on my ceiling one night so I could "sleep under the stars" when I wasn't with him.
They're still there. I never took them off.
Where was I going with this? Oh! Looking him up. No. I like to be in control of things and I don't know how I would react if I ever saw him again.
I still hold a grudge. He told me he was thinking about leaving and instead of being cool I made a scene and begged him to stay. I was obnoxious but I thought I was fighting for what was mine. He said he'd stay.
Then the next day I got called to fly out to Oklahoma to bury my aunt. I woke him up to tell him I was leaving out and he said "What'd you wake me up to tell me that for?" His whole demeanor changed overnight.
So I left for Oklahoma and called him the next night and asked if we were okay. He wouldn't tell me straight. Asked if he was going to be there when I got home. He refused to say. So I left it.
Then my mom called me the next night and told me he had split.
I was 1200 miles away burying someone and this SOB left me!!
Even his sisters were furious at him for leaving me.
So when I got back I called him and asked to see him. He met me at the store in his new silver Camaro. I thought "you traded in a Ford for a Camaro?! Are you crazy?!" Plus he still owed my parents two grand because they co-signed so he could get the truck he had traded in.
Then his sister told me he was seeing some 35 year old alcoholic bartender, with three kids by three different men. It was like between her and the Camaro, he traded down. Way down. And that he was sleeping with someone else was tearing me up. I felt he washed himself of me with the dirtiest thing he could find.
I have never been able to reconcile how someone who loved me, revered me, trusted me when he trusted no one else and who was my absolute protector could turn on me like that. And I know its wrong but I still have times when I think "it must have been my fault. There's something wrong with me. I deserved it."
But I'll be okay as soon as this night passes. I always am.
But I won't ever forget him. Ever.
This is a pathetic stream of consciousness. Can this be deleted tomorrow? Hey Koan?
I'm going to see this tomorrow and wonder what I was thinking but tonight my pride's on hold.
No, I haven't really looked him up. Maybe I don't really want to know. I'm not sure. I hardly ever think about him except for his birthday, valentine's day, christmas and whenever I go to Vegas. He lived in Vegas and I used to go there as much as possible to see him. My life didn't start until Friday night when I'd go over the mountains and hit Vegas and then we'd be flying high. I remember every restaurant, every park, every hotel, just everything. It only gets me sometimes though. And then there's stupid stuff: If I smell Drakaar or Grey Flannel, I think of him. When I pass a rack of shirts, I still check out the 18x35's and wonder if he still wears that size.
This is embarrassing but you know those stick on, glow in the dark stars? He put a bunch on my ceiling one night so I could "sleep under the stars" when I wasn't with him.
They're still there. I never took them off.
Where was I going with this? Oh! Looking him up. No. I like to be in control of things and I don't know how I would react if I ever saw him again.
I still hold a grudge. He told me he was thinking about leaving and instead of being cool I made a scene and begged him to stay. I was obnoxious but I thought I was fighting for what was mine. He said he'd stay.
Then the next day I got called to fly out to Oklahoma to bury my aunt. I woke him up to tell him I was leaving out and he said "What'd you wake me up to tell me that for?" His whole demeanor changed overnight.
So I left for Oklahoma and called him the next night and asked if we were okay. He wouldn't tell me straight. Asked if he was going to be there when I got home. He refused to say. So I left it.
Then my mom called me the next night and told me he had split.
I was 1200 miles away burying someone and this SOB left me!!
Even his sisters were furious at him for leaving me.
So when I got back I called him and asked to see him. He met me at the store in his new silver Camaro. I thought "you traded in a Ford for a Camaro?! Are you crazy?!" Plus he still owed my parents two grand because they co-signed so he could get the truck he had traded in.
Then his sister told me he was seeing some 35 year old alcoholic bartender, with three kids by three different men. It was like between her and the Camaro, he traded down. Way down. And that he was sleeping with someone else was tearing me up. I felt he washed himself of me with the dirtiest thing he could find.
I have never been able to reconcile how someone who loved me, revered me, trusted me when he trusted no one else and who was my absolute protector could turn on me like that. And I know its wrong but I still have times when I think "it must have been my fault. There's something wrong with me. I deserved it."
But I'll be okay as soon as this night passes. I always am.
But I won't ever forget him. Ever.
This is a pathetic stream of consciousness. Can this be deleted tomorrow? Hey Koan?
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RedGlitter;604376 wrote: You guys are very kind to a sad girl.
I'm going to see this tomorrow and wonder what I was thinking but tonight my pride's on hold.
No, I haven't really looked him up. Maybe I don't really want to know. I'm not sure. I hardly ever think about him except for his birthday, valentine's day, christmas and whenever I go to Vegas. He lived in Vegas and I used to go there as much as possible to see him. My life didn't start until Friday night when I'd go over the mountains and hit Vegas and then we'd be flying high. I remember every restaurant, every park, every hotel, just everything. It only gets me sometimes though. And then there's stupid stuff: If I smell Drakaar or Grey Flannel, I think of him. When I pass a rack of shirts, I still check out the 18x35's and wonder if he still wears that size.
This is embarrassing but you know those stick on, glow in the dark stars? He put a bunch on my ceiling one night so I could "sleep under the stars" when I wasn't with him.
They're still there. I never took them off.
Where was I going with this? Oh! Looking him up. No. I like to be in control of things and I don't know how I would react if I ever saw him again.
I still hold a grudge. He told me he was thinking about leaving and instead of being cool I made a scene and begged him to stay. I was obnoxious but I thought I was fighting for what was mine. He said he'd stay.
Then the next day I got called to fly out to Oklahoma to bury my aunt. I woke him up to tell him I was leaving out and he said "What'd you wake me up to tell me that for?" His whole demeanor changed overnight.
So I left for Oklahoma and called him the next night and asked if we were okay. He wouldn't tell me straight. Asked if he was going to be there when I got home. He refused to say. So I left it.
Then my mom called me the next night and told me he had split.
I was 1200 miles away burying someone and this SOB left me!!
Even his sisters were furious at him for leaving me.
So when I got back I called him and asked to see him. He met me at the store in his new silver Camaro. I thought "you traded in a Ford for a Camaro?! Are you crazy?!" Plus he still owed my parents two grand because they co-signed so he could get the truck he had traded in.
Then his sister told me he was seeing some 35 year old alcoholic bartender, with three kids by three different men. It was like between her and the Camaro, he traded down. Way down. And that he was sleeping with someone else was tearing me up. I felt he washed himself of me with the dirtiest thing he could find.
I have never been able to reconcile how someone who loved me, revered me, trusted me when he trusted no one else and who was my absolute protector could turn on me like that. And I know its wrong but I still have times when I think "it must have been my fault. There's something wrong with me. I deserved it."
But I'll be okay as soon as this night passes. I always am.
But I won't ever forget him. Ever.
This is a pathetic stream of consciousness. Can this be deleted tomorrow? Hey Koan?
I can almost guarantee he is regretting every bit of that...
Quite frankly, you deserve better...
I'm going to see this tomorrow and wonder what I was thinking but tonight my pride's on hold.
No, I haven't really looked him up. Maybe I don't really want to know. I'm not sure. I hardly ever think about him except for his birthday, valentine's day, christmas and whenever I go to Vegas. He lived in Vegas and I used to go there as much as possible to see him. My life didn't start until Friday night when I'd go over the mountains and hit Vegas and then we'd be flying high. I remember every restaurant, every park, every hotel, just everything. It only gets me sometimes though. And then there's stupid stuff: If I smell Drakaar or Grey Flannel, I think of him. When I pass a rack of shirts, I still check out the 18x35's and wonder if he still wears that size.
This is embarrassing but you know those stick on, glow in the dark stars? He put a bunch on my ceiling one night so I could "sleep under the stars" when I wasn't with him.
They're still there. I never took them off.
Where was I going with this? Oh! Looking him up. No. I like to be in control of things and I don't know how I would react if I ever saw him again.
I still hold a grudge. He told me he was thinking about leaving and instead of being cool I made a scene and begged him to stay. I was obnoxious but I thought I was fighting for what was mine. He said he'd stay.
Then the next day I got called to fly out to Oklahoma to bury my aunt. I woke him up to tell him I was leaving out and he said "What'd you wake me up to tell me that for?" His whole demeanor changed overnight.
So I left for Oklahoma and called him the next night and asked if we were okay. He wouldn't tell me straight. Asked if he was going to be there when I got home. He refused to say. So I left it.
Then my mom called me the next night and told me he had split.
I was 1200 miles away burying someone and this SOB left me!!
Even his sisters were furious at him for leaving me.
So when I got back I called him and asked to see him. He met me at the store in his new silver Camaro. I thought "you traded in a Ford for a Camaro?! Are you crazy?!" Plus he still owed my parents two grand because they co-signed so he could get the truck he had traded in.
Then his sister told me he was seeing some 35 year old alcoholic bartender, with three kids by three different men. It was like between her and the Camaro, he traded down. Way down. And that he was sleeping with someone else was tearing me up. I felt he washed himself of me with the dirtiest thing he could find.
I have never been able to reconcile how someone who loved me, revered me, trusted me when he trusted no one else and who was my absolute protector could turn on me like that. And I know its wrong but I still have times when I think "it must have been my fault. There's something wrong with me. I deserved it."
But I'll be okay as soon as this night passes. I always am.
But I won't ever forget him. Ever.
This is a pathetic stream of consciousness. Can this be deleted tomorrow? Hey Koan?
I can almost guarantee he is regretting every bit of that...
Quite frankly, you deserve better...
RedGlitter is Sad Tonight.
Red, How real, and down to earth, and emmotional, and passionate you are.
A rare combination of qualities, a rare find. But you know, Ive been told...... tough to live with. They cant handle it, its too much. And its too much competition for them to shine. The part about not being able to believe he forgot you, or never wanted to know how you were got me. Ive agonized over that also. And the trading down part???? Very common scenario. We women can never understand that. But that is the arrangement that allows them to be king of the hill. Someone needy, makes them feel wanted.
When I was devastated 6 years ago, over the end of my relationship, with someone who was my friend for 20 years, I called my friend and was telling her about the new women he had chosen. A woman whose main interests in life were playing bingo, and cutting coupons..... my friend said " How difficult it must be for him to be in this new relationship, after having had someone with so much life!! Feel sad for him. Its time for you to file this whole thing away like a chapter in a book youve read, and move on. Youll never get any answers. Men and women are just very different species. I think that it is out of the ordinary for them to truly be emmotionally connected. They are able to walk away, and not look back. And remember what you said about the loan to your parents? Big red flag, character flaw... love blinds us to those. I have a feeling his life isnt too great.Yours still can be.
A rare combination of qualities, a rare find. But you know, Ive been told...... tough to live with. They cant handle it, its too much. And its too much competition for them to shine. The part about not being able to believe he forgot you, or never wanted to know how you were got me. Ive agonized over that also. And the trading down part???? Very common scenario. We women can never understand that. But that is the arrangement that allows them to be king of the hill. Someone needy, makes them feel wanted.
When I was devastated 6 years ago, over the end of my relationship, with someone who was my friend for 20 years, I called my friend and was telling her about the new women he had chosen. A woman whose main interests in life were playing bingo, and cutting coupons..... my friend said " How difficult it must be for him to be in this new relationship, after having had someone with so much life!! Feel sad for him. Its time for you to file this whole thing away like a chapter in a book youve read, and move on. Youll never get any answers. Men and women are just very different species. I think that it is out of the ordinary for them to truly be emmotionally connected. They are able to walk away, and not look back. And remember what you said about the loan to your parents? Big red flag, character flaw... love blinds us to those. I have a feeling his life isnt too great.Yours still can be.
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dont be blue be red :-6 :-6
i know how you feel there is nothing i can say just hang in there ,things have a way of making you feel better
dont be blue be red :-6 :-6
i know how you feel there is nothing i can say just hang in there ,things have a way of making you feel better
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It saddens me to see you so sad. I wonder if now, he is as wonderfiul as you remember him. Its very hard to let go of certain memories, but I guess sometimes we have to so that we can move on. I have not been here long but from what I can see people here care for and love you very much. I hope you feel better today Red.
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The part about "trading down" seems to be true in my experience. Do women do this too or is it just men?
What a chickenshit way to leave. That seems to be fairly normal too.
What a chickenshit way to leave. That seems to be fairly normal too.
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RedGlitter;604363 wrote:
There was this guy, see......
[...]
Today's his birthday. He'd be 43. So I've been bummed out all day, wondering where he is now, if he's someone's husband or someone's father.
[...]
It's been 19 years. You might would think I'd stop thinking about him by now.
Find out, from a distance, what did happen to him. Then you'll know. Pertaps it might be more useful than not knowing.
There was this guy, see......
[...]
Today's his birthday. He'd be 43. So I've been bummed out all day, wondering where he is now, if he's someone's husband or someone's father.
[...]
It's been 19 years. You might would think I'd stop thinking about him by now.
Find out, from a distance, what did happen to him. Then you'll know. Pertaps it might be more useful than not knowing.
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Peg;604455 wrote: The part about "trading down" seems to be true in my experience. Do women do this too or is it just men?
What a chickenshit way to leave. That seems to be fairly normal too.
Re: trading down, I don't know. I don't know why men do anything they do. Everything he did was weird. I went to see him up at the plant and waited by his truck for him to get off work on the last day we saw each other. He wasn't too happy to face me. In just a few weeks, he had dropped so much weight I was shocked. Any time something was bothering him enough, he'd lose a ton of weight. (He was never fat, just a big guy) I thought "Great! He misses me!" He couldn't look me in the eye for anything. I was looking pretty nice at the time and I remember the weird way he looked me over. Almost like he did when we first met. I don't even remember what was said now but at one point I said "I don't know whose bed you're in at night but it isn't mine." He looked really pained then. I thought I had talked him into coming back home and he said maybe after Christmas. We hugged. I left. After that all my news about him came from his mother.
As soon as he split from me, he started going to loser parties and drinking like a damn fish. Coming to work hungover. Being seen with various women. That really hurt. A LOT. I still don't understand that. Why do men do that stuff? And how can they? Can they stop caring about someone that fast? Is it really so easy? It was a very long time before I could bring myself to be with anyone again so how do they just go out and do whoever's there?
And btw, I didn't mean to imply there was anything wrong with Camaros. It's just that I grew up in a Ford house.
So I feel better today but I still want to know what the heck makes men tick. I will probably die before that ever happens though. I'm starving. I need food!
And truth to tell, if he *had* come back I wouldn't probably have taken him in for long. Just knowing he'd been with someone else...forget that. That ain't my way.
What a chickenshit way to leave. That seems to be fairly normal too.
Re: trading down, I don't know. I don't know why men do anything they do. Everything he did was weird. I went to see him up at the plant and waited by his truck for him to get off work on the last day we saw each other. He wasn't too happy to face me. In just a few weeks, he had dropped so much weight I was shocked. Any time something was bothering him enough, he'd lose a ton of weight. (He was never fat, just a big guy) I thought "Great! He misses me!" He couldn't look me in the eye for anything. I was looking pretty nice at the time and I remember the weird way he looked me over. Almost like he did when we first met. I don't even remember what was said now but at one point I said "I don't know whose bed you're in at night but it isn't mine." He looked really pained then. I thought I had talked him into coming back home and he said maybe after Christmas. We hugged. I left. After that all my news about him came from his mother.
As soon as he split from me, he started going to loser parties and drinking like a damn fish. Coming to work hungover. Being seen with various women. That really hurt. A LOT. I still don't understand that. Why do men do that stuff? And how can they? Can they stop caring about someone that fast? Is it really so easy? It was a very long time before I could bring myself to be with anyone again so how do they just go out and do whoever's there?
And btw, I didn't mean to imply there was anything wrong with Camaros. It's just that I grew up in a Ford house.
So I feel better today but I still want to know what the heck makes men tick. I will probably die before that ever happens though. I'm starving. I need food!
And truth to tell, if he *had* come back I wouldn't probably have taken him in for long. Just knowing he'd been with someone else...forget that. That ain't my way.
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I don't know what to say, please know that I'm here to listen and do care about you as a friend.
I don't know what to say, please know that I'm here to listen and do care about you as a friend.
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I would take a guess and say he messed up and had a affair or soemthing when he was with you...instead of telling you , he just slinked off....to not be able to look at you when you were at the truck says he had soemthing to hide..be it guilt. or deception...who knows....
would you want to be with someone who was going to loser parties and drinking his life away red? after being married to exactly that . i can assure you it would be a life of hell...not soemthing you would have enjoyed very much...believe me....the toll on your self esteem would have been high....
it almost sounds like you were blessed by the gods and spared what could have been very devestating to you in so many other ways....
I am sorry for your hurt and your loss...
would you want to be with someone who was going to loser parties and drinking his life away red? after being married to exactly that . i can assure you it would be a life of hell...not soemthing you would have enjoyed very much...believe me....the toll on your self esteem would have been high....
it almost sounds like you were blessed by the gods and spared what could have been very devestating to you in so many other ways....
I am sorry for your hurt and your loss...
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sounds like we could all use a girls night out together.....
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Wendybird;604738 wrote: You live too damn far away! :-5
So do you!! :-5 :-5 :-5
So do you!! :-5 :-5 :-5
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guppy;604734 wrote: I would take a guess and say he messed up and had a affair or soemthing when he was with you...
Well, I did ask him that because I suspected in a way but he was adamant that he had never cheated on me. He knew I'd get him in his sleep if he ever did that to me. He even told his mom he was upset that I thought he had. But what was I to think? Until he got squirrelly, he was a total charmer, was the best looking man on the planet, had backbone, never cheated at anything, never lied, and always protected me. We'd go out and even with his arm around me or his hand on me, when it was obvious we were a pair, other women would start in on him. He was never rude to them but he made it clear he was mine. I never had to say anything but one time, to a very pushy cocktail waitress and I didn't do it in front of him either. I still wonder if he did. But most times I think not. I think maybe he wanted to in the end and maybe that's part of why he left.
would you want to be with someone who was going to loser parties and drinking his life away red?
No. I wouldn't.
after being married to exactly that . i can assure you it would be a life of hell...not soemthing you would have enjoyed very much...believe me....the toll on your self esteem would have been high....
it almost sounds like you were blessed by the gods and spared what could have been very devestating to you in so many other ways....
Yeah...I'd have a mess of kids right now that I couldn't afford!
I am sorry for your hurt and your loss...
Thanks Gup. I'm okay now though. It was just a bad night last night. :-6
Well, I did ask him that because I suspected in a way but he was adamant that he had never cheated on me. He knew I'd get him in his sleep if he ever did that to me. He even told his mom he was upset that I thought he had. But what was I to think? Until he got squirrelly, he was a total charmer, was the best looking man on the planet, had backbone, never cheated at anything, never lied, and always protected me. We'd go out and even with his arm around me or his hand on me, when it was obvious we were a pair, other women would start in on him. He was never rude to them but he made it clear he was mine. I never had to say anything but one time, to a very pushy cocktail waitress and I didn't do it in front of him either. I still wonder if he did. But most times I think not. I think maybe he wanted to in the end and maybe that's part of why he left.
would you want to be with someone who was going to loser parties and drinking his life away red?
No. I wouldn't.
after being married to exactly that . i can assure you it would be a life of hell...not soemthing you would have enjoyed very much...believe me....the toll on your self esteem would have been high....
it almost sounds like you were blessed by the gods and spared what could have been very devestating to you in so many other ways....
Yeah...I'd have a mess of kids right now that I couldn't afford!
I am sorry for your hurt and your loss...
Thanks Gup. I'm okay now though. It was just a bad night last night. :-6
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Wendybird;604717 wrote: Red I feel for you sweetheart. But sometimes talking about these things can be good for you. Keeping it all inside is difficult and can lead to problems.
Thanks but I do feel a bit ridiculous. It's not like I just got freshly dumped or anything.
You are sharing your thoughts with us and getting input from your friends. Listen to what people are saying to you and especially what we are saying about you. You are a warm, beautiful, funny and generous woman and any man would be lucky to have you as his partner.:-4
Arggh! I wish! It takes SO MUCH to turn my head! I mean for me to have an interest in someone, he has to have something really special about him. Like seriously special. There's criteria there. I rarely date just for the sake of going out; I think that's boring. And the ones who really hit me are few and far between. The interims suck.
If you think looking this guy up will help then do it. But what if he is happily married with gorgeous kids? How would you feel then?
I'd probably be sick. I'd feel like they should have been ours.
Think about how much you really need to know........you may be better off not knowing.
I noticed you mentioned about having this thread deleted. There is nothing wrong with the thread but if you do decide you want it deleted just give Koan or myself a shout and I am sure we could do it for you.
Thanks. But heck, a ton of people have already seen it and its not the worst I've ever seen here (or probably will ever write) so I guess I'll just live with it.
Keep smiling Red. You will get through this little hiccup.
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Thanks but I do feel a bit ridiculous. It's not like I just got freshly dumped or anything.
You are sharing your thoughts with us and getting input from your friends. Listen to what people are saying to you and especially what we are saying about you. You are a warm, beautiful, funny and generous woman and any man would be lucky to have you as his partner.:-4
Arggh! I wish! It takes SO MUCH to turn my head! I mean for me to have an interest in someone, he has to have something really special about him. Like seriously special. There's criteria there. I rarely date just for the sake of going out; I think that's boring. And the ones who really hit me are few and far between. The interims suck.
If you think looking this guy up will help then do it. But what if he is happily married with gorgeous kids? How would you feel then?
I'd probably be sick. I'd feel like they should have been ours.
Think about how much you really need to know........you may be better off not knowing.
I noticed you mentioned about having this thread deleted. There is nothing wrong with the thread but if you do decide you want it deleted just give Koan or myself a shout and I am sure we could do it for you.
Thanks. But heck, a ton of people have already seen it and its not the worst I've ever seen here (or probably will ever write) so I guess I'll just live with it.
Keep smiling Red. You will get through this little hiccup.
:)...
RedGlitter is Sad Tonight.
Aw shiney one I am coming into this late, but I only have one teensy bit of advise.
Let him go sweetie. If you labor over him it hurts again and again and again, letting go will end the hurts sure it's a big hurt but it's a once and for all, one time only hurt.
Let him go sweetie. If you labor over him it hurts again and again and again, letting go will end the hurts sure it's a big hurt but it's a once and for all, one time only hurt.
�You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough.�
• Mae West
• Mae West
RedGlitter is Sad Tonight.
(Just saw this) Oh Red, you're beating yourself up through no fault of your own, please stop that!!! You deserve better, way better! Never, never give up the ship, for one day yours will come in! It truly will. Yours, and only just for you & no one other than you! As others have already said, "knowing" his current fate can/will finally cure your curiositity/longing and bring this saga to an end!
Just know that you are loved by many in here. And they have not even met you IRL, so all they have to go by is the content/intent of your posts showing your inner beauty, kindness, thoughtfulness, love.
So here's few extra :yh_hugs :yh_hugs :yh_hugs :yh_hugs just for you!!
Just know that you are loved by many in here. And they have not even met you IRL, so all they have to go by is the content/intent of your posts showing your inner beauty, kindness, thoughtfulness, love.
So here's few extra :yh_hugs :yh_hugs :yh_hugs :yh_hugs just for you!!
Cars 
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chonsigirl
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Lots of hugs for you, RG. You think back, and it hurts still. Don't look back anymore, the whole future is before you. And you are among your friend here, who care.:-4
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Tater Tazz
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Red, you can do better. You probably already have and just don't relize it. Search you heart and you know what i mean. Stay happy. I need you to be happy. 