I'm having a nervious breakdown!

minks · Post by **minks** » Wed Aug 15, 2007 7:41 am

sixyearsleft;679789 wrote: I've come here not for your sympathy, but to record some kind of diary of my demise, while I'm trying to juggle my career and my studies all in some vain attempt to help Mankind, I find myself trapped in this black hole, my Father is dying from Mesothelioma Cancer an illness caused by the ignorance that the working classes have to suffer from, the social injustices that our past generations continue to die from, anytime now my DAD will what he calls FLY AWAY......

I have to admit to myself that I cant cope anymore, and it is here on FG that I will talk to the ether in a shaky voice rather than destroy everything that is inside of me, maybe this is a cry for help and I'm to proud to admit it but what it is is what it is..

I've got no more strength....

ian.

keep posting, keep talking, lean on your friends, a problem shared is a problem halved, trust me it's comforting to know you are not alone.

I am so sorry to hear about your father, I struggle daily watching mine deteriorate and it kills me thinking my superman is aging and suddenly is weaker than I.

Just keep talking and taking the support from everyone and anyone you can.

RedGlitter · Post by **RedGlitter** » Wed Aug 15, 2007 7:41 am

Ian, I won't give you unwanted sympathy but I will give you my willing ear at any time. Any time at all.

sunny104 · Post by **sunny104** » Wed Aug 15, 2007 7:50 am

:yh_hugs Ian :yh_hugs

WonderWendy3 · Post by **WonderWendy3** » Wed Aug 15, 2007 7:51 am

I saw the title and I'm there with you...I understand how you are feeling...not dealing with an ill Father though, my heart goes out to you :yh_hugs:yh_hugs

minks · Post by **minks** » Wed Aug 15, 2007 8:02 am

Six, a wee bit of advise, knock off the insignificant bits of worry from your life, trust me this will be a bit of relief. An example, ok if you don't get the car washed for 6 weeks drop the stressing over it, or if you can't make it to a friends house for a dinner, that is ok to, drop it completely from your mind. You have a plate full mate, scrape off some of the things that can be put on hold.

We as humans can only take on so much and gosh you have a load.

Thank you for the kind words as well.

neffy · Post by **neffy** » Wed Aug 15, 2007 8:42 am

HI Ian

I dont really know you but i have a shoulder anytime you want to off load:)

Galbally · Post by **Galbally** » Wed Aug 15, 2007 9:02 am

Take it handy Ian and just keep your head above water. I lost my dad when I was 20, it was a terrible blow at the time, but I survived it somehow, all the best. And allow youself some time to feel weird or even breakdown a bit, its normal in these situations.

pantsonfire321@aol.com · Wed Aug 15, 2007 9:23 am

sixyearsleft;679789 wrote: I've come here not for your sympathy, but to record some kind of diary of my demise, while I'm trying to juggle my career and my studies all in some vain attempt to help Mankind, I find myself trapped in this black hole, my Father is dying from Mesothelioma Cancer an illness caused by the ignorance that the working classes have to suffer from, the social injustices that our past generations continue to die from, anytime now my DAD will what he calls FLY AWAY......

I have to admit to myself that I cant cope anymore, and it is here on FG that I will talk to the ether in a shaky voice rather than destroy everything that is inside of me, maybe this is a cry for help and I'm to proud to admit it but what it is is what it is..

I've got no more strength....

ian.

Ian ...why don't you go see your doctor, their there to help if you really are finding it difficult to cope .

I'm sorry to hear about your Dad :-6

Pheasy · Post by **Pheasy** » Wed Aug 15, 2007 9:33 am

minks;679818 wrote: Six, a wee bit of advise, knock off the insignificant bits of worry from your life, trust me this will be a bit of relief. An example, ok if you don't get the car washed for 6 weeks drop the stressing over it, or if you can't make it to a friends house for a dinner, that is ok to, drop it completely from your mind. You have a plate full mate, scrape off some of the things that can be put on hold.

We as humans can only take on so much and gosh you have a load.

Thank you for the kind words as well.

What a wonderful piece of advice Minks. This is the only way I have survived those feelings of 'I can no longer cope'. Everything seems to hit you at once, and things that you would previously of dealt with, become unmanageable and hopeless.

Wishing you great strength at this time Six (you do have it, just need to find it again) :-4 :-4

buttercup · Post by **buttercup** » Wed Aug 15, 2007 10:44 am

Sorry to hear this, here for you anytime you need a shoulder bud :-6

littlemissgiggle · Post by **littlemissgiggle** » Wed Aug 15, 2007 10:51 am

always here to listen and talk, anytime you need to let go just go ahead.

sometimes it helps to talk and reel off what is on your mind.

strength to you :-4

Post by **Betty Boop** » Wed Aug 15, 2007 10:56 am

We're all here for you Six, take it easy on yourself and keep talking to us, it helps. :-4 and :yh_hugs

abbey · Post by **abbey** » Wed Aug 15, 2007 12:50 pm

IAN

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Lisa · Post by **Lisa** » Wed Aug 15, 2007 1:32 pm

Do keep posting when you have the time.And try to take it easy on yourself.

Alot of good advice has already been given so all I can say is I am here if you need to talk also. I hope things get better for you soon.:-6

Kathy Ellen · Post by **Kathy Ellen** » Wed Aug 15, 2007 4:07 pm

Hi Ian,

I am so sorry to hear about your Dad's illness. Life is so difficult, isn't it! I still cry when I think of my Mom and Dad. I still miss them so much.

You know we're all hear for you to just listen.

Let us know how you're doing. All of our thoughts are with you.

Take care now and be good to yourself,

Kathy

Nomad · Post by **Nomad** » Wed Aug 15, 2007 4:09 pm

Ian. Im your friend. Always have been. If you need to unload on me, unload.

Mystery · Post by **Mystery** » Wed Aug 15, 2007 6:57 pm

sixyearsleft;680227 wrote: If I have learned something today, it's that I realise how important people really are, although I don't really know the most of you, I get a really powerful sense of sincerity, forgive me but I'm just so ****ing angry, I've accepted the realty, but it's so hard to look at him, I feel so guilty, but this is what growing up is all about so they say...

all the best.. and thank you guys

nomad I've never doubted it.. and thanks

Losing parents is one of the hardest things, IMO, any of us go through. I had to watch mine wither away slowly, my mother with cancer when I was 15 and my dad with heart disease when I was 22. Nothing before or since affected me as dramatically. Anger is a natural part of the grieving process. You have to go through it, but the trick is (and this is what I had to do) to channel it into healthy outlets. Examples: yoga, meditation, a hobby, take a drive, punch a darn punching bag- anything really so long as you don't hold it in. Doing just what you're doing - talking with others - is one of the most helpful means there is. Another thing that helped me, and still does, tremendously was keeping a journal. That was my own personal sounding board, where I could vent out everything without thought to consequence or recrimination. It was something tangible to let all that frustration out.

I'm so sorry you're having to go through this. I'll keep you in my thoughts, and pray your father is as comfortable as is possible.

SuzyB · Post by **SuzyB** » Thu Aug 16, 2007 3:37 pm

sixyearsleft;679789 wrote: I've come here not for your sympathy, but to record some kind of diary of my demise, while I'm trying to juggle my career and my studies all in some vain attempt to help Mankind, I find myself trapped in this black hole, my Father is dying from Mesothelioma Cancer an illness caused by the ignorance that the working classes have to suffer from, the social injustices that our past generations continue to die from, anytime now my DAD will what he calls FLY AWAY......

I have to admit to myself that I cant cope anymore, and it is here on FG that I will talk to the ether in a shaky voice rather than destroy everything that is inside of me, maybe this is a cry for help and I'm to proud to admit it but what it is is what it is..

I've got no more strength....

ian.

Ian, I wish I had words of wisdom to offer you, I may not have that but I have a large shoulder for you to lean on and ears that are always willing to listen.

My Mum is having chemo at the moment and the prognosis isn't looking very good. I totally understand you feeling that you have no more strength, but try to allow people to help you talk about how your feeling, although some things can't be changed, it is nice to know you have friends around you.

My thoughts are with your family :-4

Carl44 · Post by **Carl44** » Fri Aug 17, 2007 1:40 am

sorry you are having such a hard time buddy, i do know exactly how you feel,life for some of us is so very hard so very very unfair

this is the way it is for us though buddy there is no great referee in the sky with a whistle to blow and say hold on that is not right this person has suffered enough i'm not going to let him/her take any more crap they are up to their necks in it allready

if so i would of heard the whistle a long time ago ,deaths trauma ,freak things going on its tough

and the crap keeps coming my friend my crap went past my neck and over my head long ago its so deep now now its probably several feet over my head but hey what am i gona do give up ....never ..ever ...ever give up ..ever ,i found out this week my suzy cant have an op ,she just have to live with her pain till well pretty much she wont be mobile any more and the mental health team have told me this week my daughters mental health is so bad that i have to give up what little work i could do any way and look after her full time well thats us screwed ... me and my girl will be on the poverty line for ever now and i will have to look after her till my dying day or till i'm till to old to care for her anymore then she will probably have to go back into a mental care place

well thats it in a nutshell buddy ...life sucks for some of us ..its not fair its not just and its not right but thats the way fate deals its cruel hand ..

i for one am sick of it the constant gritting my teeth .the picking myself off the floor only to have fate kick me in the nuts ,trip me over and when i'm laying on the floor helpless tip ten more gallons of crap over me

but hey thats the way it is for me ...that is my life ...the good thing for me and my loved ones that depend on me is i am the most stubborn moron in the world and i will not take a backwards step and i will never give up ever

welcome to my breakdown buddy maybe we can go crazy together :wah:

maybe this can be our song now not just mine :wah:

were back

chonsigirl · Post by **chonsigirl** » Fri Aug 17, 2007 4:34 am

I am sorry to hear about your father, Ian. I am thinking of you during this hard time, words can never say enough when such things happen.

Uncle Kram · Post by **Uncle Kram** » Fri Aug 17, 2007 5:09 am

Best wishes dude :yh_hugs

Carl44 · Post by **Carl44** » Fri Aug 17, 2007 5:54 am

sixyearsleft;680909 wrote: Jimbo thank you.

I feel such a fool, they say it's a part of life, the generation clock continues,

my father is in so much pain, caused by the ignorance of man, I feel stronger now but still very angry......

people like you jimbo and suzie are just so incredible and I cannot find the words

to express your humility and courage....

and to all of you, thank you so much, thank you so very much indeed.....

all my love to you from the centre of my heart and soul.................

A video for you jimbo.......

thanks ian that is one of my fave songs :-6:-6we will get through all this crap and become wiser stronger men

Carl44 · Post by **Carl44** » Sat Aug 18, 2007 2:59 pm

sixyearsleft;681770 wrote: Cheers mate,,,

Jimbo, I have to deeply and personally thank you, you are truly a mans man,

my father is smiling and understands that we are proud of him, he says " I'm content and ready to fly away" my feet now feel firmly on the ground,

The best thing I ever did was to post this here..

thanks all..

life is so curious sometimes.. for you jimbo:

thanks buddy :wah::wah:

no one tell wise guy about this song

buttercup · Post by **buttercup** » Thu Sep 06, 2007 8:28 am

What happened to six

SuzyB · Post by **SuzyB** » Thu Sep 06, 2007 8:30 am

buttercup;690747 wrote: What happened to six

I don't know, I haven't seen him about but saying that I haven't been here too much over the last few weeks.

Hope your well Butters :-6

buttercup · Post by **buttercup** » Thu Sep 06, 2007 8:32 am

I am hunni, not been around much myself with one thing & another. See you applied for college, well done :-4

SuzyB · Post by **SuzyB** » Thu Sep 06, 2007 8:34 am

Hey I've just realised his posts say n/a, which may mean that he asked to leave??

Indian Princess · Post by **Indian Princess** » Thu Sep 06, 2007 2:29 pm

Six, when I get overwhelmed, oh , say when Im scared to death I will be homeless and lose my son, I take second, by second, eventually you work up to minute by minute, hour by hour ect. Do what you need to do.