fed up

pink princess · Post by **pink princess** » Mon Jun 06, 2005 3:51 am

firstly sorry for not having been around for a while, just seem to have been so busy, plus theres the fed-upness im feeling!

ok, so back around christmas i had 3 months sick leave from work - never been sick before and certainly had never been in hospital - now im back at work but.... the thing i was diagnosed with is a lifelong thing which i take a mountain of pills to help control but itll never go away and im left with constant symptoms just not ones quite as serious

its a problem with my stomach in as much as basically my stomach doesnt work properly so ill let you all work out the ever so pleasant symptoms i experience

its very similar to chrones disease

but its like 6 months on now of being back at work and im so fed up of all the constant feeling rubbish, stomach ache nearly every day, feeling sick the whole time, wierd appetite, total exhaustion.....

i dont know i think im just looking for some words of inspiration from someone.....

ive just kinda had enough.... i go thru good/positive periods but then sometimes it all just gets to me and now it is

smithy87 · Post by **smithy87** » Mon Jun 06, 2005 5:33 am

Hey PP

are the pills not helping that you've been prescribed? Can you go back to the docs? Or an operation?

My brother in law has chrone's and seeing him ill was awful. I never realised how serious it was.

I'm not much inspiration (

) coz I'm crap at anything like this but I do really hope you're feeling better soon. Have a good laugh or cry to get some of it out of your system!

Peg · Post by **Peg** » Mon Jun 06, 2005 6:58 am

Sorry to hear this Pink. I have RA and I know what you go through feeling like crap every day. There's hundreds of medicines out there. Maybe a change is needed? Maybe try eliminating a certain food you eat each day and see if that is making it worse. Search google so you can get a better idea of things to try. The one thing that always helps me is to look at others. On the days I can barely walk, I think of the person with no legs, etc. Good luck to you.

john8pies · Post by **john8pies** » Mon Jun 06, 2005 7:14 am

I sincerely wish you all the best with your health problems and hope that your forthcoming marriage will cheer you up a lot!

pink princess · Post by **pink princess** » Mon Jun 06, 2005 7:17 am

Peg wrote: Sorry to hear this Pink. I have RA and I know what you go through feeling like crap every day. There's hundreds of medicines out there. Maybe a change is needed? Maybe try eliminating a certain food you eat each day and see if that is making it worse. Search google so you can get a better idea of things to try. The one thing that always helps me is to look at others. On the days I can barely walk, I think of the person with no legs, etc. Good luck to you.
i dont think they can change the medication really, it took them i think 4 goes to the get the medication right and as its stopped the real severe symptoms i darent meddle with it, apparently the 'side effect' symptoms (not from the pills but from the illness) i have are perfectly normal it just seems i may get them slightly worse, but im sure there are others out there who could debate that with me!

apparently its not food related..... before i got admitted to hospital i had been having proper symptoms (losing blood) for over a year and id tried the diet change and nothing worked, im careful with what i eat now in as much as i dont eat curry and loads of dairy products but other than that ive never really noticed anything make it worse

the only things that make it worse are stress and hormones and seeing as i have 'issues' with both those things........!!!

you have to laugh tho right? i mean the whole thing is entirely absurd and it sucks so much..... theres humour in it somewhere!

ive just had enough of it at the moment, had a really bad two weeks with it and taken yet more time off work..... eventually i wont have a job to come back to, its taken me so long to build up a decent reputation for being someone who is good at their job and now i think im knocking that on its head.......

pink princess · Post by **pink princess** » Mon Jun 06, 2005 7:22 am

john8pies wrote: I sincerely wish you all the best with your health problems and hope that your forthcoming marriage will cheer you up a lot!
he he - that made me smile

tho..... and dont laugh at this, the wedding, im kinda worried that if i get nervous before which knowing me i will, that it will set everything off..... what if i get a flare up the day before or the day of the wedding?.... imagine it - i wouldnt be able to walk down the aisle coz id be rushing to the bathroom!! (thats such a secret fear of mine and ive just shared it with anyone that reads this! :O )

minks · Post by **minks** » Mon Jun 06, 2005 7:27 am

Awww Pink I am sorry to hear your feeling so glum. I hope if nothing else you find a little humor and compassion among your friends here. And maybe you just have to keep telling the Dr.s how you feel before they get things right.

Huggs Hun.

abbey · Post by **abbey** » Mon Jun 06, 2005 7:29 am

I'm sorry to hear about your condition PP.

And sorry to hear that you're feeling so crummy at the moment,

i hope that start to feel a little better soon...Hugs to you x.

capt_buzzard · Post by **capt_buzzard** » Mon Jun 06, 2005 8:52 am

Sorry to hear about that 'pink princess' but thank you for sharing it with your friends on FG.

mominiowa · Post by **mominiowa** » Mon Jun 06, 2005 7:08 pm

Pink I can kind of relate I guess.. Everything I eat with in a half and hour it is gone...Mine is due to medicine - but what really upsets a person is when they DO NOT understand. I hate to eat out - I hate to even go to WalMArt or the grocery store at night after supper. People laugh at me and say that is what Imodium is for -but that stuff has been put on the BIG HUGE NO- NO list...Girl I wish I could wave the magic wand for you---Do u live in a major city? I am considering a specialist in that area even though my doctor said it would go away- I have been off and on treatments for 4 years and it NEVER goes away...All I can say is that there are other people like you and if people can not understand then SCREW them..as for the job..Start keeping a journal of how many days and such and it maybe such a thing as you have to apply for SS...if obese people and people that have a drinking problem can get it - maybe u could too...Good luck and know I am thinking of u! :-6

pink princess · Post by **pink princess** » Tue Jun 07, 2005 1:47 am

thankyou everyone

your all wonderful

feeling a little better mood wise today, not quite there but im giving it a good shot!

theres been so much happening recently, so much rubbish stuff at work and a few issues with personal life too so nowhere seems to be a haven at the mo and im so stressed and grrr'd that im giving my wonderful guy hell just coz im stressed!!

however i refuse to let it all beat me damnit! i mean if i give in now ive got another like 50 years of it to put up with!!

koan · Post by **koan** » Tue Jun 07, 2005 5:16 pm

Glad to hear the fighting words. Living with it forever should be last on the list of priorities. After your wedding I hope you really look into every possible solution...like accupuncture etc. Louise L Hay has some great books on healing. Perhaps some Valerian or nerve tonic the night before the wedding would help you relax? Of course, do nothing without your doctor's consent.

Lots of hugs and support.